Katy's P.O.V.
Dinner with Robyn was wonderful. She kept staring at me and I'm sure I was red the whole time. We were driving home-- to my house when I started staring into the side view mirror. I could see the cars behind us and the background fading away. I rested my head on the window and felt the slight bumpiness of the road as we drove.
"Katy, sweetie." I heard Rih say
"Hm?" I asked
"Keep your head off the window, please."
"Why?"
"Well, if we get into a car crash, your head will suffer the most injury."
"Oh, but I like resting my head here."
"You won't like being paralyzed."
I sat up and kept staring into the mirror.
I noticed a car with five different colors in the view of the side mirror.
"Who wants a colorful car?" I wonder
I shut my eyes for a bit and then open them when I hear a horn from outside the car. I look around and catch a glimpse of the same ugly car in the mirror. Why is it still there? My eyes had been closed for a while... I think I'm being paranoid, but I'll watch it so I can be sure.
After several turns, I can still see the car behind us.
I open my mouth to tell Robyn, but no words come out. I don't want her to call me crazy.
I sit there, bouncing my leg and thinking about what I should do.
"Babe, are you okay?" Rih asks
"Yes." I say quickly
"You look anxious..."
I don't respond.
I see the car use it's turn signal and get excited. I watch it make a right turn and sigh in relief. My leg stops shaking and I rest my head against the back of the chair.
Soon, we arrive at my house. I change and sit on the bed, using my phone. Rih comes down shortly after, I feel her arms wrap around me from behind.
"What do you wanna do now?" She asked
I just shrugged my shoulders.
She sat next to me and started staring at me
"What?" I asked
"You're hot." She said and bit her lip
I faced away from her and started blushing
"Now tell me..." she said
She tilted my chin to face her and leaned in. Then, we shared a long, passionate kiss for a few seconds before she pulled away and looked into my eyes. She slowly leaned towards my ear.
"...What was wrong with you today."
"Oh, you tease!"
"I barely even did anything. Just answer me!"
There was a pause.
"Well, I thought somebody was following us, but I didn't want to seem paranoid, so I didn't say anything. By then I saw the car go in a different direction, and I realized that I worried about nothing."
She chuckled "Is that it?"
I nod. "I know the things I say don't seem like much, but it's a lot for me. I've been hurt so many times."
"Aww..." she pulled me in for a hug "You need to tell me these things. How am I supposed to help you feel better if you don't tell me anything, hm?" She let go
"I just want you to stay with me, but I keep messing up and I'm so weird. Sometimes I'm scared to blink because I think that this is all a dream and you'll go away my eyes open. I don't know what to do. I just end up so stressed over all of it and I feel like I'm cursed. It's like everyone wants to date me, but no one can love me. I'm on an endlessly painful loop..." My eyes start to water and Rih squeezes my hand.
"I'm not gonna go away. I don't want you to ever worry about that. I love you and I would never hurt your feelings like that. I'm yours, now."
I lean forward, landing on her chest
She leans back and strokes my hair softly, then kisses my head.
I stay quiet
We just sit there, in silence. I just don't think I'm really ready to say that while I'm sober. I don't know how Robyn feels about it, if the silence is awkward for her or if she's uncomfortable dealing with all my issues. I don't ask her, because I don't want to stress her out more.
"Do you want to watch TV?" I ask
"No, I'm okay." She says, but I'm unsure if she's telling the truth.
"Can we please watch something?"
She picks up the remote and plays some Jazz music. I smile when I hear it. I nuzzle against her, as a way of letting her know that I like it.
We're just laying there, and it's bliss. I love her so much. I hope she never leaves. She said she won't, but that's what they all said before they left...
I decided to just enjoy this moment. I'm happy right now and I don't want to worry about the future. I'll just be happy with her right now. Just like the song says: all we got is right now.
I focus on my surroundings. I close my eyes, this time I'm not afraid of her disappearing.
I can hear the smooth jazz. I can feel her heartbeat, which is accompanied by the rise and fall of her chest as she breathes. I take in her scent and I finally open my eyes...
She's still there. Her strong face shape and those adorable green eyes. Her perfectly arched eyebrows. Her cute nose. Her lovely lips that I want to kiss.
Her pupils shift and she looks at me. Time slows down. I lean up and give her a light, but passionate, kiss and then come back down. Time speeds up again
She takes my hand and circles the back with her thumb. She brings it to her face and kisses it, then returns it to it's original position, my hand is still laced in hers. I draw circles on her chest...
Alright guys, I know it's been a long time since I updated. It was around 4 am when I decided to write since I was gonna stay up. School is out for summer, so I should be able to update more often. Love you guys💕
(If anyone is still reading)
