Letter R .

Respect

After that day ended, I started looking at myself differently. It wasn't much at first, so I didn't pay any attention to it. At school, everyone acted differently; they smiled, and waved, and some even hugged me as if we've been friends since the dawn of time. I felt like I was in the wrong school, but then I realized that by being with him I was getting the respect I've longed for.

Not going to lie, I very much enjoyed my time as a "royal"; I looked at everyone who made a joke out of me as if they were peasants. I felt like the most baddest bitch to ever set foot at the school, and I was happy. Happy that finally no one made fun of me, or picked on me, of course besides my friends who've always been there for me. I was so cut up in the moment that I forgot that there was a price to pay.

I didn't think of it, but every day Roger took me out to that same place in the middle of wherever it was, and forced me to my knees. Scared of being disrespected again, and left alone, I did as I was told. My dignity came to an end that day; for in order for everyone to like me, I had to make sure I kept him in my life.

My body was slowly shutting down on me, but I still made sure I pleasured him as much as I could. He eventually got tired of me, because I wasn't giving him my all. "I'm not ready for that type of commitment," I proclaimed to him, but he didn't care. If I wasn't giving him my all, or my ass in realist terms, then what was the point of him staying. Roger then left without saying a word, nor did he even look at me when he did. All I remember was a little chuckle that came from his direction.

Once he left I felt very heartbroken, and very scared for the coming days. At school, however, nothing changed. Everyone kept being nice to me which was a good thing because I felt like the biggest target afterwards. I felt really horrible for the way I was acting while I was with him, so I started treating everyone around me with respect. I was soon loved for who I was, and everyone started looking up to me as the most caring person ever. Now I was happy, but that all fades away sooner than you think.