Letter R .

Relinquish

For the rest of freshman year, I've been less isolated and more social with people. I looked happy, everyone thought that I had my life together, but only if they knew. I've kept myself from having emotion for a while now, I couldn't remember how it felt to be anything. But the year was coming to an end, so I didn't care.

One day I am invited to a dance by downtown, and of course I decide to go. I met wonderful people, and made new friends. The nigh ended up with a lot of pictures being taken of all of us, and having them being posted on social media. The next day I get a message from some random guy that I've never met before. He was such a gentleman, asking me if he could repost a picture I posted a couple days ago. Seems silly right? Who asks someone if they can repost something they posted? I honestly thought it was cute.

Him, and I ended up talking everyday, and we were hitting it pretty well. Months prior to that, we finally met at a Barnes and Noble. God, I remember being so shy, and I could tell he was too. While looking at some cook books, he makes a move and kisses my cheek, and I lost it in my head. We smiled at each other, and he then took out a beautiful necklace. "Kevin, will you be my boyfriend?" He asked as he held out the necklace. "Yes," I replied with a gleam in my eyes.

Something about him felt very different: he wasn't like the other guys I've been with at all. However, I was preparing myself for another break up, I knew that he'd leave me in a short time, but I was proven wrong. Every month we'd see each other at least twice, and the rest of the days would be spent having endless conversations with him over the phone. His name is Nelson, and he is the biggest book worm you'll ever meet. He's y'all, with thin, dark brown hair, and fair skin. His eyes brown like chocolate; I couldn't keep my eyes off of them.

After a being together for a while, two months to be exact, I confessed to him everything about my past. I relinquished myself towards my emotions and let everything I couldn't to him. He hugged me, tightly, and whispered, "You're safe with me; I'll keep you safe," and in that moment, I knew I already was. As time passed, we both have grown to have feelings for each other. Now, we recently have celebrated being together for two years.