Brotherly Love: Chapter Two

Chapter 9: When there's rain...

Four Weeks Later: One Month Later

It's the feeling of your heart breaking, but it isn't just instantly, it takes it time to slowly crack. And each time the crack happens, the sharp pain takes place but it ignites like a flame, and you never know how long the pain will last. But boy does it hurt.

I sit in front of Hope's tombstone. Removing the dead roses there and replace them with some bright sunflowers. She would most definitely enjoy these.

"Where do I begin?". I sigh looking down at the dead roses in my hand. "You would be so ashamed of me and my decisions, everything is happening so fast and I just wish to God you were here with me".

"Caleeb?". I hear a familiar voice call from behind me. I turn to see Ann, Hope's mother with a few Roses in her hand. She gives me a warm smile and takes a seat next to me.

"Ann". I smile embracing her in a warm hug. Ann and I have never lost the connection we always shared as mother and son. She was a very important person in my life and I treated her as though she were my real mother.

She releases me from the hug and I can see a concern look grow on her face. I look down, unable to meet her questionable eyes.

"What's wrong?". She ask.

"I was really hoping you wouldn't ask that because I can not lie to you". I sigh picking away at some vines that were trying to grow on Hope's tombstone.

"Talk to me". She places the remaining flowers that she brought onto the tombstone. "You know I'm not a fan of liars".

"Grace is pregnant". I bluntly let out.

"And why is that so saddening ? A baby is a miracle into the world, when Rodney and I found out we were pregnant with Hope it was shocking and surprising since we had tried for years to conceive". She informs me while rubbing her hands on my cheeks.

"Ann, I love Grace, I do, but that's not where my heart is at right now, I cheated on her, before I found out about the pregnancy and I told her about it a month ago, she ended up running into me and that said person having coffee and freaked out, I haven't spoken to her since and she isn't picking up any of my calls or texts". I explain to her.

"Oh Caleeb, and this other girl?, how are things with her?". She asks fixing her seating position on the grass.

"She isn't speaking to me either, she wants me to choose what I want, Gracie Ann broke up with me, and refuses to speak to me, and now I don't know what to do because I want to be a better man to my unborn child, I do but she would not even allow me to accept the consequences". At this point I was crying as she pulls me into a tight hug.

"I know you have a heart, and I trust that you follow it before it's too late". She rubs my back gently. "You and Grace, might not be a match made in heaven but if your heart is telling you to go to this new girl who seems to make you happy by the way you talk about her, then see where things go with her".

I absorb everything she is telling me. I have to admit I am no longer happy with Gracie Ann and I haven't been for awhile now, I just didn't know how to tell her that I didn't want things to go on. I know I could of handled the situation better instead of cheating but I have no idea what came over me and lead me to doing it.

I'm not in love with Grace, but she is carrying my child and I want us to at least try to be friends or co parent. Kids were something Hope and I would sit down for hours and plan out. What their names would be, and who they would look like more.

Ann finally releases me and wipes a way some of my leftover tears. A smile made its way across my face, making Ann look at me with a puzzling face. I turn to look at Hope's Grave.