okay like i know there is no point in writing this because i know your not going to care but I love you so much beverly. you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and i know that you chose mike and that i might never win you back, and even though i am being rude as hell to you right now i want you to know that im always here if you need me. sure i was mad about the you not coming to the hospital thing cuz i almost died and i know you don't trust me right now, but i felt like you had to know that. i am probably making such a fool out of myself but that's how i feel and i can't change that. i tried to get over you because i thought that it would stop me from hurting. but the truth is me trying to not like you anymore was hurting me more than it was before. i just felt like i had to get that off of my chest. i don't know how to prove it to you, but i promise you i will.
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