This Thing Called Life

Chapter 12

(Symonè POV)
Right now I'm not even scared to go to Al .. all I can think about is his evil ways and is going to try to pull I already know that he knows about my plan so I gotta take a different route with him now. One thing about all is that is far from dumb I can tell you that but he is only street smart I on the other hand is street smart and book smart so what I decided to do is tell Al I have to reschedule the sell because of problems on my block with the work his dumb ass actually fell for it so Bibby and i are just going to go figure out a plan and hopefully he doesn't bring up "us" I don't know where we stand I can't pull myself to know he's the reason I was raped know one knows about that situation except for us. Like I was you're girlfriend and you get mad at me because I want to get my own money and let alone put me out the car in the middle of nowhere late as hell .. yeah I'll never forgive him for that he's the reason I'm so fucked up and has the audacity to try to talk about an "us" he did me dirty in the WORST ways possible.. no one really knows what was really going on in our relationship and if someone finds out Bibby will end up DEAD I don't want that for him tho even after he did me wrong . I do love Bibby don't get me wrong but I just can't while I was lost in my thoughts I hadn't noticed that this nigga got his filthy hand on my damn lap
"Um Brandon why tf is you're hand on my lap?"

"You always gone be mine and you know this Monè i don't know why you fronting yo move shordy"

"I think the fuck not I don't belong to anyone and after wtf you put me through there'll never be an "us" please get that through your thick ass skull" I spat at him angrily

"You really always bringing up the past that shit is beyond old Symonè I apologized about it let the shit go damn it ain like you ain deserve it anyway"

I cannot believe this white bitch is really saying this bullshit to me right now this motherfucker cannot be serious rn 

"Did you really just say I deserved to get my ass beat every fucking day by you , to get raped cus of you , or to sell pussy just for you to have money to spend with yo other hoes behind my back , or for you to make me get a train ran on me or you was gone kill me .. so you telling me I deserved all of that just to have yo ungrateful ass back through whatever I was there for you in ways I wasn't there for my fucking self Brandon and you say I deserved that shit" by now I was in tears cus of this bitch

" look bitch you blowing my high and yes I think you deserved every ounce of that shit you wasn't shit you aborted my fucking seed and just thought I was gone love you fuck no you just like the rest of these no good ass hoes" he bitterly laughed in my face

Right now I was absolutely speechless for words I had to abort that baby under major important circumstances I just can't believe this shit I thought he came back to change but here he is the old Bibby in the flesh I was there for him through whatever no matter wtf he ever put me through I'm talking bout shootouts broad day lying in court for this man stripping and prostitution just to pay his lawyers or bond him out ain no other hoe ever did for him what I did for him and that's fucked up he treats me like this I remember one time he had no money to re up on his drugs to sell and he owed Al a big lump some of money you know wtf I did got fucked my 4 men in 4 hrs just to get the money for him and never have I once received and thank you or anything I'm always a "hoe" or "thot" but I was doing the shit for him I done took charges for this bitch and still nothing Herb don't even know half this shit and I'm fucking up my life for a no good ass nigga..

"Symonè baby you know I ain mean shit I just said I'm sorry" he said with all sincerity

"Bibby fuck you and yo sorry take me to herb house I'm done with this convo"

(Bibby POV)
I really just fucked up rn Ik I shouldn't have talked to her like that but it hurts me to know that there is possibly no chance of us getting back together because of my fucked up ways but I have a reason to be so fucked up and bitter my fucking mother was a crackhead always running the streets I never had a damn mother figure yea I had herb mother but I want my own mother my own blood and my resentment for Symonè was cus she aborted our baby that hurt me deep but Iknew if she brought that baby into this world Al was gone kill her for reasons she never told me but I started treating her fucked up and started beating her for no reason it's like when I look at Symonè I see my mother and I just use to beat tf outta her I'm feel like a coward because I had the girl heart and just stepped on it and i know she would've did anything for me I even forced her into prostitution and I knew that shit wasn't right at all I'm just fucked up man