Coffee Shop

Chapter 16 : Drowning

A/N: I'll be starting to make warnings before a chapter just in case if any of you readers need a warning if anything bad happens, such as self-harm that includes blood and such. Thank you for the suggestion to the reader who made this suggestion in the first place (I don't know if you want to be mentioned or not). Anyway, continue to read and enjoy the story.

-KookieYama

Trigger Warning Up Ahead

Jungkook's P.O.V.

It's been about a month or so since the first day of school. Most of the days were just me trying to... I guess you could say, improve. Headaches have become a somewhat  daily thing now, but I've managed to hold it in thanks to my new pack of pain killers I bought a few days ago. Tae and I have been going to the cafe everyday after school, just like we've promised each other. It was fun and it was actually good to talk to Jin and Namjoon more than I did last year. Taehyung was an amazing friend. He stood up to me whenever bullies would come our way or comfort me whenever we received glares from shitty students.

It was nice having someone to walk next to during passing periods. It was weird, I didn't get beat up anymore ever since I encountered Jung-lee. It's crazy, even if Tae and I didn't have any  classes together, he would still escort me to my classes. I did worry, though, if the bullies would start to beat him up instead. I would made sure to check on him if he received any beatings or what not. Fortunately, he didn't get beat up either. We still received stares though...

Like I said before, headaches was somewhat a daily thing. I would wake up early because of the same repeated nightmare and then I'd suffer through the battle of good and evil. It was hectic, and I did kind of scar myself with my nails multiple times. Taehyung would see those scars and silently kiss my wrist. However, the nights where Taehyung did decide to sleep over, those nightmares weren't as severe. Sometimes the nightmare wasn't even a nightmare. It was just me jogging through the rain, not blood, and then I'd magically wake up. I did notice that I had a good night sleep whenever I slept in his arms. Strange...

Speaking of Taehyung.... I still don't know when to confess yet. I mean, I don't know if he even likes me back or he's straight. I'm scared of the rejection and I'm scared of what he might do next. Would he still stand by my side even after he received my confession? Of course not. I couldn't possibly imagine him liking me back... Those thoughts would suck the life out of me sometimes, make me all depressed and hopeless. I would cry myself to sleep, just knowing that I wouldn't even have a chance.

And then the thoughts of me being a huge burden to him at school were just... negative. I would always question why he was hanging out with me instead of hanging out with his child hood friend, Jimin, at the popular table? It didn't make any sense to me.

"Kookie, you okay? You seem a bit pale." Taehyung's voice snapped me out of my thoughts. I nodded and put the okay sign.

We're in fourth period now, math. The teacher went off to copy some files or something, so she allowed us to talk to each for now. Tae was sitting in the empty desk in front of me, even though he sits in the seat to my right. We're  playing hangman. It was actually quite funny watching Tae trying to figure out the letters I signed.

I must say, he's learning sign language pretty fast, well I mean... he memorized the alphabet and learned some sentences such as "are you okay?" or "where do you want to go today?" It was pretty cool. He does mess up every now or then though. Jin hyung's teaching him well.

"M'kay. Give me another letter." he says full of childish excitement. Right now, I'm guessing a word. So far, my hangman already has his head, a body, and his right arm. I signed the letter "k."