Dear diary, it's currently around midnight, yay.
Yesterday I got my grades back, it's not too bad but I'm still not satisfied with myself.
I'm really stupid.
Buuut, a lot has happened since last time.
I have to write about this because I will die if i don't tell anybody. On Tuesday we had a party, where me and my friends were playing truth or dare. When it was my turn, there were only my good friend Martha and my other close friend Raquel with me so I had no problem telling them about my relationship- thingy with a guy from our class...
Well then Raquel suddenly got very upset and almost started to cry. I had a suspicion but I had to confirm it, so I went to a girl from my class that knows like all the secrets and asked if she knew why Raquel was upset.
When I asked if it was because of the guy I'm kinda-dating she said: "or...", and I was pointing to myself and asked: "me?".
She just went away after that, but her silence was enough ;(. That day I found out my close friend had a crush on me.
I didn't know how to handle it and almost started crying. I called my best friend and she calmed me. I now feel very akward around that girl. I don't want to but it's always like that, it's not the fact that she's a girl.
I'm just not gay, bi maybe but atm I like guys.
God this is so hard for me ;(.
If someone out there reads this, please help me ;(, I don't know how to handle it.
Also yet again, I know I'm 13 and I have my whole life before me but please, this is bothering me so much!
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I'm planning to sort things out with my "boyfriend", I'm just not ready for one yet.
I feel like I was too young to realize that before.
I also finished the Harry Potter series and am obsessed. I'm in Ravenclaw btw.
If you guys know a good Drarry fanfic plz message me :).
And now a question to you guys...
is it weird to be 5'2 and weigh 115 lbs? I feel way to heavy :(, my best friend is 5'8 and weighs less than me, I feel fat.
Also another question, should I try to do a healthy diet? Like only eat certain stuff without that much calories and sugar?
Thank you for reading( if you even do),
Daydreamer.
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Dear diary
Non-FictionThis is my everyday life I decided to write it down. If you think it pathetic it's probably because you're right.
