under the rainbow

chemistry partners

So we got out of history class Becks had biology but I had chemistry we hugged goodbye and from down the hall backs yelled
"see you in calculus !"
"see ya !" I walked to chemistry to find a smiling Jax staring at me with his sparkly green eyes. I sat next to him and then Mrs.Olsen walked in to the class and said
"take a seat children,the person you sit next to will be your partner for the semester." I turn to face Jax and we both smiled.

our first assignment of the year we have to recreate a model of a volcano from the Hawaiian islands, any volcano we want from the Hawaiian islands. we were researching volcanoes me being me we choose the hardest one so if we mess up Mrs.Olsen will let it slide. we were looking at volcanos when the bell rang I grabbed my stuff and left the class.

I heard Jax
"Paige wait up I was thinking we could work on the volcano after school."
"um ya ok I have dance practice but I will be home at 5:00 and I already have all the materials we need for it."
"um ok cool,here text me your address." he then gave me his phone number and we both walked to calculus. when we got to class Becks ran up and jumped on me.

"I just saw you half an hour ago."
"oh ya, so who is this?" she asked  clearly directing to Jax
"this is Jax."
"hello Jax I'm becks."  she said smiling in a flirtatious way.
"hello Becks."  Jax said Bex,
Jax and I are at our table the next three classes I felt like I was third Wheeling. I was sad I like Becks but it looks like she likes jax, even at lunch she left at almost everything he said. I was kind of distant all day then School ended and I went to dance with Becks.

we walk to the gym went to the bathroom and change into my Spandex. I kept my crop top on, we have this routine we have to learn to the song Skinny Love. right now we all have to dance to the song the best dancer is lead front and center stage, in the four years I have done dance I have never been lead. but our dance coach Sarah stop the music and said
"Paige and Becks are you okay with being the lead a couple?"  I was hesitant but Becks was so excited
"OMG yes we are totally okay with that."  she looked at me and I said
"I guess so." I'm happy but dance really pulls you in emotionally what if we are in the moment and I'm not thinking, what if I kiss her I love her so much but if I tell her I will ruin my relationship with my best friend. she doesn't even know that I'm lesbian let alone that I'm in love with her and honestly I would rather like very much to keep it that way, to live my secret life and shame. so we went to my house after dance to practice the routine I spawn at six times then Beck's dipped me I popped up her face was right there so beautiful. I was leaning in but right before our lips touched Jax car pulled up but quickly.

Becks backed up and mouth
"sorry." Jax ran up and said
"what's up with the no clothes?"
"dance practice." I simply answered as if nothing happened between me and Bex
"what do you need." Jax asked kinda fidgety he looked at me I said
"crap I forgot we have homework."
"ok well I have to go home anyway." said Becks
“ok I will see you tomorrow.” she left without saying anything jax and I went to my room I put on a black veil brides sweatshirt and we worked on the volcano he kept trying to make me laugh it was sad.
“I know how to make you laugh.”
“oh really.” I said vary sassy be for I knew it he was tickling me I was laughing so hard
“omg Jax stop.” I tried to push him off but he fell on top of me he was so uncomfortably close it's not like Becks it's not right he started to lean in
“omg Jax no stop I'm not like that.”
“what do you mean your not like that?” he  questioned worriedly I got all awkward and I didn't know what to say. but I didn't have to all of a sudden Jax said
“your a lesbian aren't you.” he asked me all I did was not and started to cry he hugged me for a while, then asked me
“does anyone know?”
“just you,you can tell anyone not even Becks ok?”
“ok.” was all he said we finished our volcano even know it was not due for the next three weeks. It got late so Jax hugged me and said goodbye, I took a bath and went to bed.