The Long Game//XiuChen [UAU II]

VI / Definition

WARNINGS: Strong language

-Day 4; Saturday, June 3rd, 2017-

The day before Kim Jongdae ended up at Kim Minseok's home in Guri, Gyeonggi-do, around an hour away from his own home in Siheung, making out with his best friend, Kim Minseok, Kim Jongdae stood outside his own dorm door, holding a box of pizza.

"Baekkie!" Kim Jongdae called, knocking on the door. "Let me in! My hands are full!"

The door opened a few moments later, a smiling Byun Baekhyun behind it. "Oh joy!" he exclaimed, grabbing the pizza box out of Jongdae's hands. "I got the movie set up."

Jongdae followed Baekhyun into the dorm, where he really did have the movie set up- Ferris Bueller was up and ready to go. Jongdae half expected that he wouldn't have the movie ready; he had made him and his other friends watch it so many times they were probably plotting to burn his CD and email Netflix to take it down.

Baekhyun sat on the sofa, opened the pizza box, and took out a slice. "So, you wanted to talk?" he asked through a mouthful of pizza.

Jongdae nodded, sitting beside Baek on the couch. He leaned over, took a slice from the box, and pressed the play button. "It's about Minseok."

Baekhyun groaned. "Not surprised. What now? Realized you really do want his dick?"

"I talked to him today."

"Wow, good for you. They say social interaction is important."

"Baekhyun, please." Jongdae pleaded. He was serious, his tone desperate.

"Fine, fine." the other boy said, waving his hand dismissively. "What happened?"

-Day 3; Friday, June 2nd, 2017-

Turns out Kim Minseok was right- Kim Jongdae really did sleep like a princess. And sleeping on the couch did not fit Jongdae's sleeping standards.

Jongdae laid awake all night, allowing his thoughts to wander. He thought about what both Byun Baekhyun and Kim Minseok told him, about having to face things for what they were.

Was he really a homosexual? Or was he straight? Neither? Both?

It hadn't occurred to him until now that there was the possibility of being both gay and straight. He knew there was a term for it- his friends had thrown it around.

What if he was? Would his mother throw him out? Would his friends hate him? Would anyone he dated disregard him? Would he fail to get his classical studies degree? Would he get fired from any job he had in the future? Would he end up completely and utterly alone because of it?

Now Jongdae understood why he was so afraid to face it, face what Minseok and Baekhyun called the truth.

In his world, things worked out for you if you were what people wanted you to be. And society had this idea of a perfect person, and being gay or a mix of both or neither did not fit in this description.

Jongdae had high expectations for himself, and not fitting this perfect image scared him. Not to say that not being straight made you imperfect or anything less, but society is a homophobic bitch.

Not being able to take it anymore, Jongdae sat up off the sofa and reached for his phone. Squinting at the sudden brightness of the screen, he opened Google, quickly typing in 'sexuality'. It brought him to a Wikipedia page, labelled 'human sexuality'. He quickly skimmed the page, but found that that was not what he was looking for.