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Sophia p.o.v
4 months since Mom has passed away Ethan has changed whole lot he doesn't care
He has gotten tattoos all over his arm the only one I like is 'N.H'  was his first tattoo it's in his ring finger his second tattoo was his birthday in Roman numerals
IX-XIII-XCIII
I liked both the tattoos i even got the same tattoo of Ethan Roman numerals
But then Ethan just started getting more more tattoos meaningless to me
Was 'Yolo' and 'Fuck the fake' he barley go to school he goes clubbing or parties every night he's bringing new girls to fuck every morning he says he'll call them but he never does he instead rips their number throws it away the trash
He has blocked me out his life everytime I tried to talk to him he ignores me he walks away from me or he just leaves to other party
5 minutes ago we got argument again because he told me he was getting ready to go out party with his "friends"
"Ethan you can't go"
"Yes I can you won't stop me I'll sneak out if I have to"
"Please don't go I don't like that you come home drunk with new girl you can get HIV or STD or you might get any girl pregnant you're young to become parent you're only 15"
"That's not going to happen I wear condoms"
"Sometimes condoms don't work Ethan why are you not understanding" I said edge of tears
"You're not going to stop me if you like it or not I'm going"
He walked passed me up the stairs to get ready
Now I'm the living room
Crying I heard the upstairs shower turn off I looked over at night stand the living room I got mom picture I was looking at it
I slowly started singing I made (it's Avril let's pretend Sophia sounds like her)

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
Need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missin' you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missin', too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missin' you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missin', too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do, I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe; I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missin' you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missin', too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
Will always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you
after singing I cried louder I didn't notice Ethan was hiding up stairs listening me
I didn't know he has tears his eyes
Ethan walked down stairs walked out the door without saying word to anybody

I'm the hospital they're taking forever to call my name