death threats; zach herron ✔️

One.

one.

*Zach's pov*
who am i?
someone that's afraid to let go.
you decide
if you ever gonna let me know
suicide
if you ever try to let go
i'm sad i know yeah

why won't anyone believe me?
why am i the one to blame?
it was one party, one night!
and i didn't even do anything wrong.

all this hate, these death threats are getting to me.
my depression has never been worse and i feel like i'm mentally breaking down. i feel like I can't speak about my situation to anyone because i'm honestly scared. i've always thought about death, and what it would be like, but i thought that maybe just maybe that people actually cared for me, loved me, yet i was wrong. my life's a living hell, though being in a band with 4 other band mates, who i grew close to and who practically became like my older brothers, i still feel like i'm not good enough to live in this world.
although i have a great family and all, i still feel like trash. the reason of my depression is actually from stress, then more things came, which it actually turned to depression.
the other guys sometimes share about what they're going through, yet i don't say anything at all. i cover up all my emotions by being happy or something, but no one knows the real me, not even my family.
i've thought about what life would be like if i weren't alive, or maybe if i died. i would think that things would be better if i was never here. people might disagree because they just don't wanna hurt my feelings right? but others don't care or would rather have me gone.
i'm worthless,
useless,
lonely,
depressed,
but i keep it all within me.

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A/n: hey guys! So the part that isn't true is the part where he's depressed and all of that, bc idk him in person or anything. Again that part is NOT true, whereas the part that he received death threats, hate, and his "scandal", that's true. Hope y'all enjoy this story and get a better understanding of what he could possibly feel.