PRESENT DAY
"Callie, you can't ditch graduation." Maya scowled at me.
I came back to reality. I was no longer in California. I was home, in New York, my hair was wet and my body in a robe. I looked at my navy blue graduation gown that laid on my bed.
"I can't go." I muttered.
He was gone. It was weeks, a month maybe, since we had decided that it wouldn't work. Or in other words, his career took off and he couldn't see me. Him traveling also lead to him cheating on me with groupies. That broke me. Broke me into a million pieces to the point where nothing could glue me together. In a way I hated him yet I loved him.
I needed him. More than anything.
Maya huffed and frowned, sitting next to me,"Honey, you need to get over him. You tried to work things out but he couldn't contribute to the relationship. He wasn't making an effort to see you or try to make it work."
Liar.
"I'm sorry Cal, I know you really liked him but you need to get over him."
I touched the gown,"Do you think he'll show?"
"Callie! Wake up," she grabbed my shoulders and shook me,"It's over. He's in another country right now and he's seeing someone else."
Another lie.
Maya shook her head at me and stood up,"You need to get dressed. Graduation is in an hour."
"He's coming." I said,"He promised."
"Okay Callie," her eyes saddened," Okay."
She went to exit the room but she stood at the door.
"I hate seeing you like this Cal but it's been almost a month."
"He broke me. He lied to me."
"I know and I'm sorry but..."
"I don't think you get it." I said, m voice quivering,"He broke me. I want to be happy. I want to be the way I was. But he broke me. He took something from me and I can't get it back without him being next to me. I loved him. I loved him. And he broke me. Like I was nothing. I am broken. I want him. But I can't have him. He doesn't want me."
"Everything he told me, every promise he made, he lied. I was living a different life a month ago, Maya. I was in California. Then he ruined me, told me every lie. That's why I'm here. Not because I want to be here. Because I can't stand being in the same town and state as him. If I had my way, I'd be living on the moon to get away from him yet I still wouldn't be okay. Everything takes time but this is going to take more time than others because I loved him with all my heart and Jack broke my heart."
Maya opened her mouth but she choked on her words. Her head nodded and she walked out of my room, the door closing behind her. My hands ran against the graduation gown. Anger began growing in the pit of my stomach and I wanted to scream. The fabric balled against my fist and I threw my fist down, my heart racing, tears rushing down my cheeks.
I let go of the gown and reached for my phone. I went to my messages and stared at our last conversation we had. One month ago, 3 days, 17 hours, 32 seconds. I wanted to text him, call him at least. Tell him he's on my mind or ask him about the weather. But I knew he wouldn't answer. I wouldn't be surprised if he blocked my number. But, I highly doubted it.
As stupid and risky as this was, I had to. I went to his contact name and hit start call. Hands shaking, I placed my phone to my ear.
First ring.
