September 23rd 2015 6:00 am
My eyes opened and it took me a second to remember what happened last night. I didn't even remember going to bed.
I looked at my phone and it was 6 am. Why the hell did my body decide to wake up this early? Oh my fuck.
I rolled out of bed looking around. This was it, we we're going back to Australia.. I am slightly happy but at the same time I'm terrified.. absolutely terrified.
Flashback **
"Brieeee oh my god look at this, Luke posted you on twitter" she put her phone right up to my face and as I turned her phone hit my glasses and made me jump. "Jesus you scared me" we both laughed..
I folded my blanket and grabbed my pillow and walked downstairs. I put my stuff on the couch and turned on the TV in the meantime.
It got to be about 10 and my parents woke up and got our stuff ready in the car. We were out by 11. Our flight was at 2 but it takes like an hour and a half to get to the airport.
The whole ride there was a blur, I mainly just listened to music in my headphones having a silent panic attack. I'm going back to the place that, I ruined. I ruin everything I touch.
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September 24th 2015 6:32 pm
We finally landed in Australia, the second we got out, the smell in the air was comforting. We got our baggage and headed to the front entrance and we took an uber to our new home.
When we arrived at our house around 8, we saw Luke's mum, michaels mum and Ashton's mum.
My stomach dropped. I was so nervous, I can't believe we're actually here. memories started flooding my mind and my face got flushed.
We walked up, me trying to avoid all eye contact. We got up there and they both welcomed us with open arms, Lukes mum came to me first, she'd always loved me I just didn't know with everything that happened that she'd still love me. When she hugged me, I hate to say it, It felt like home.
We walked inside, with all of them and we saw everything but personal/important items were unpacked, set up.
"We wanted to set up some stuff for you guys like the furniture and such, I hope you don't mind?" Ashton's mum said to my mum, "oh sweetheart I appreciate that so much, you've got no idea." My mom began tearing up, they all group hugged, I wish I had friends like that...
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"So I was thinking, Millie, would you like to go to my house where the boys are at? While we have dinner here? They wanted to see you and they even made dinner over there for you" michaels mum offered. My heart skipped a beat, they wanted to see me...?
"Uh, i mean, um yeah, yeah" I stuttered.
They all giggled and I just pushed my glasses to my face and awkwardly stood there.
"I'll drive you hun" my dad said. I smiled and grabbed my bag off the couch.
Once he drove me there he offered to walk me to the door, I politely declined because I was already super nervous, my dad being there would only rack my nerves up.
I got out of the car, and started walking to the door. My heart was pounding, was she here too? I don't know, what if they decided they don't wanna see me, oh god.
I spaced out for a sec coming back into reality when I hit the doorbell.
It took a second but I heard boys chattering and it was getting louder as they got closer to the door. The door opened as I was looking down at my shoes and when it opened I slowly looked up and was met with crystal blue eyes, lucas Hemings.
I started for a second and so did he, we both took in our views, something we used to do when we were intimate with water.. once upon a time...
Flashback
"You're so god damn beautiful Millie" luke was behind me looking at me through the mirror in front of us. He kissed my neck and ran his hands up the sides of my body.
His hands made their way to my pussy and he used one hand to rub my clit, he used his other hand to hold my hip on one side to keep me in place, sort of.
His lips stayed near my neck, breathing heavily into my ear, making me lose control over my moans.
He moaned in pleasure of what he was doing to me. He loved dominating me.
"Hi" he said nervously. The other boys poured out of the house group hugging me, mine and Luke's eye contact didn't break though.
They all let go and I was back to reality. I smiled and said, "hi guys" I said, I didn't really know what else to say, what do you say when you're the villain of the story..
I walked in, following everyone to the kitchen I assumed.
"So how the hell have you been mill???" Ashton asked me. I smiled and hesitated for a moment, "good, ya know I made friends, sorta" I paused to push my glasses against my face, "my cousin made my life hell ontop of me myself making it hell" I chuckled.
"What do you mean mill?" He asked, their eyes were all on me. I took a deep breath and fondled my fingers out of nerve, "you don't have to talk about it if it's bad mill, we just care and we wanna get to know you again" he smiled sympathetically.
I smiled and said, "I just regret a lot of how I handled things, and the guilt kinda ate me alive ontop of my cousin manipulating my friend into hating me so once again I left a country with my friends hating me, so yeah" I cut myself short because I don't like opening up.
"I'm sorry mill, but we just want you to know that we still love you and the only reason we didn't stay in touch was because you started acting different and we didn't know if you still liked us.."
"I felt the same way, besides the acting different part, I felt like you guys didn't like me and that you hated me and I hated myself for leaving and hurting all of you I just isolate myself and put on a mask. I'm so sorry" I looked down tears starting to fill my eyes.
"We love you" Calum said hugging me.
I took a deep breath collecting myself, "what's for dinner?" I smiled and said, once again pushing my feelings down.
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we all ate dinner and kept a good conversation going. Luke kept making glances at me and when I'd look at him he'd look down.
"I was thinking of dying my hair red, mikey you wanna help me tomorrow?"
His face lit up and he got happy, "oh my god yes and everyone will love im the comeback with us matching hair" I smiled and giggled, hes so cute.
"Sounds great" I smiled.
