Shari's point of view :
Two weeks earlier ;
I was sitting on my bed before suddenly hearing my phone go off, and when I say go off, I mean GO OFF.
I pick up the stupid thing and there's 10 new messages , 1,000 new followers , a bunch of likes and comments on my feed and a tagged picture of me and ... MILLIE?
"What the fuck" I said out loud . Very flatly.
Uh why the hell am I tagged in a picture with her ? Didn't she like ditch me for that Lacey chick ? Well no she didn't I'm just a butthurt bitch . But what the bloody hell is going on??
I ignore every notification, ignore the post, especially the caption, but did she really tell me the personal things ?... maybe she was just saying that to make herself feel better .. who knows ..
I toss my phone on my bed and decided to shower. But before I even had a chance to move my mom comes rushing in the door.
"OH MY GOD YOUR BESTFRIEND AND MY BESTFRIEND IS COMING BACK OH MY GOD ISNT THIS WONDERFUL??!!" My mother screamed in my face.
"Yeah I'm super happy mom." I smiled at her. I wasn't as happy as I would've been if we were close anymore.
"What's wrong" she asked me.
"Nothing, just , I don't know , her coming back... I mean I'm happy but is she gonna be the Mill we know ? Or the one with thousands of followers and a big ego..." my words drifted as I walked to my bathroom shutting the door. Leaving my mom there processing my words. I hated that I made her feel that way but , I don't know how good this is gonna be ..
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After taking a hot shower I got on my favorite pair of sweats , a cute maroon T-shirt and I picked up my phone clearing all notifications and calling my amazing boyfriend luke. He'd know what to say to make me feel better. They're also cousins. Mac is her fathers side, Luke is her mother's side. I need his reassurance right now ..
"Hey love what's up?" He answered almost right away. I love that about him.
"Hey.. I don't know how to feel about Mill ..." I drifted.
"It'll be alright love , you know the boys and I have always kept her herself , look at us , we're in a band and we still hold it together. I'm sure she'll be fine. You just haven't talked to her in a while. She's not what you think. Okay?" He said to me calmly.
"Okay love..thank you for that" I said to him. We were so calm with each other. I loved it.
"I love you , I'm gonna go prepare myself for our gig tonight , bye baby" he said to me.
"I love you too love. Enjoy your day. Bye"
Present day :
Okay, she's coming in two weeks. Two weeks, Is all I have.
This is gonna suck.
Millie's point of view ;
Fuck this. Fuck all of this. I can't, I can't do this. Shari is gonna hate me for tagging her. I forgot about our argument .. I got so mad and I saw that cute picture of us .. if I go back I'm gonna be the bad guy.. my cousin is gonna hate me the boys won't see me the same .. I'm gonna be a "wannabes bitch" in their eyes. I can feel it. I have two weeks , two weeks is all I have to change ...
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Changing meant , dying my
Hair back to what it was. Dark and beautiful, that means taking social media and using it for what I want not for what the followers want. This means putting everyone above me , which I always have done , but more. I need to do it more. If I just , be the old me everything will be okay.
What I accomplished within the next six hours was astonishing.
I accomplished getting my hair dyed back to a dark brown , doing my nails shorter than normal , wearing my ripped skinnies and my nirvana t shirt. I was gonna be the me that everyone loves. Even tho they love this me more. I have to... for Calum.. for Luke.. for Mikey .. for Ashton... .
