My mother had knocked at my door and I smiled to myself. Here goes nothing. I opened the door and smiled at her and flaunted my hair "soooo do I look like the 16 year old me??" I shrieked.
"A little bit, but you sure as hell do sound like her when you do that" my mother laughed at me walking past me sitting on my bed.
"How are you love" that question was the one question I didn't like.
"I'm alright , I wanna be the old me for when we go back.." my voice trailed off.
"You will be. Trust me , you did what you had to to fit in here. It's understandable, this social media stuff won't mean jack shit when you have your old friends back. Luke will take care of you , as will the other boys. You just gotta be yourself. Now you have everything packed ?" She asked looking around
"Yeah, not much to pack ha" I "laughed"
All I realistically had was my fashinova outfits , makeup, a few pictures, and my technology. Everything else was getting thrown out or sold.
So yeah , I was done packing.
I look over at my phone, debating on whether or not texting the boys.. like I used to
Flashback :
To: the boys :-))
guys I'm scared to go to California, what if no one wants to be my friend? I don't wanna leave you guys 🙁
Cal : I know love , you'll be alright. We're gonna miss you a lot. You'll be alright. You're beautiful and the sweetest girl ever. You'll find some friends.
Ash : yeah what he said 😂 you'll be fine little sis , you'll make great friends.
Mikey : I DONT WANT YOU TO GOOOOO
Luke : you'll be alright. Love you. Do you still need me to come by?
Me : yeah please come by Luke, and thank you guys so much I love you all. I'm just so scared.
Present day :
I grab my phone and decide to just say "fuck it" and text them.
To : the boys
Hey guys.. I know I don't deserve your time, or your friendship, I just wanted to say I hope you guys are doing well, I won't bug you when I come. I'll make sure to keep myself distant , I don't wanna mess anything up more than I already have... I still love you guys ..
Message not delivered (try again?)
Did they.. block me ... ?
I could've started crying right then and there , deciding to keep myself okay I put my phone down and walked to my bed. I started scrolling through Twitter and receiving people tagging me in 5sos tweets.
@5sos tweeted : yo this is gonna be really weird. Hopefully things don't change too much .
@5sosisunicorn tweeted @millieeee damn is this about you coming back to town? Lol hopefully you don't ruin anything.
This is just great. There was about six other people just tagging me and saying rude stuff.
Getting off my bed I took a deep breath and let out a long sigh. I decided to go make a cup of iced coffee. Walking downstairs I heard mom and dad on the phone with "clients" explaining how sad they are that my parents are "leaving them behind". Gross. They acted like family. Sometimes more than my REAL family.
My family is so fake to eachother. my aunt would always talk trash about my mom with her daughter when she'd leave the room. Yes I'm talking about MAC. she's a stuck up spoiled brat. My mom just brushes it off like it's nothing. Yet here I am wanting to stab them everytime I see them.
Anyways , my point in this rant ? My family doesn't know how to love.
Next thing I know I hear my phone going off. A lot .
I lift my phone and see three missed calls from "Shari 💓💋"
And one unheard voicemail from her.
Hey uh.. I'm glad you're coming back. I hope we can hang out and get the old you back .. missed you. I'll help you to your locker when you come. They've changed the setting of them ... uh.. bye
Well it sounds as awkward as she is so this makes sense haha.
I decided not to call back right now. I had a lot of emotions. At that school everyone loved me .. everyone payed me to do their French homework. Everyone liked ME for me. Not for my followers list. Unlike these people here.
My accent has faded a bit which makes me sad because I'm coming back to my extremely Australian friends? People ..? I don't know what to call them. My everything is going to be all shaken up. I hate this.
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Flight to Australia ;
So it's the day we leave ...
