I'm not ready for this. I thought I was. But I'm not.
I'm terrified.
I look down at my phone and see "five unread messages"
Oh god.
Message from "the boys"
From ; ash
Hey, we miss you. Can't wait to see you when you get here. Party tomorrow wanna join? Love you xx Ash
Ashton was always the nicest one to me ..
I want to answer but I'm scared
From ; cal
Nice to know you're coming back , hope things arent too different. xx cal
Oh cal...
From ; Mikey
Yo what's up hope your flight goes well see you tomorrow ?
I miss his sarcasm
From ; Luke
Love you miss you lots can't wait to bear hug you like I used to. Haha see you tomorrow mill.
I miss those bear hugs like crazy. I guess it's nice to know that they miss me ..
From ; Shari
Hey. See you tomorrow? Maybe at the party we can talk about that past. Hope you have a safe flight.
She hates me ... I already know she does.
I decide to not reply at the moment. We're on our way to the airport right now and I don't really wanna waste battery. So I decided to put my phone down and turn on the radio. I drove with dad instead of mom because she has all the boxes and Is also driving the moving truck. So not in the mood to hear her complaining. So I drove with dad.
He's usually calm and likes to talk about life. Mom just dogs me on school and jobs.
"So are you excited ? Only school three days a week now you got time for shoppin aye ?" He laughed.
"Yeah I guess so. But I'm scared dad. What if they don't wanna be around me anymore?" I asked him
"Well sweetheart all you can do is forgive and make amends. Nobody gets a second chance to make new old friends" he quoted mine and his favorite country song "most people are good" by Luke Bryan. I guess that's the American in me. I love country music.
It's what somewhat helped me through moving.
"Nice one dad" I rolled my eyes and giggled.
My dad will always be the most amazing man I know.
"I know. It was great huh?"
"Yeah haha"
So my dad , is half American , he grew up in Australia with my mom , his sister left , they're 6 years apart. Sucks my aunt didn't have Mac when she was younger so I wasn't stuck with her at school.
But either way I'd have to deal with her in family gatherings and reunions.
Never fails. But moms side is full Australian. I got stuck with best of both worlds.
I guess I never described what I look like either. My hair is pure dark brown all the way down my back. I've got bright green eyes and a few freckles scattered on my nose and cheeks. I've got average lips , rounded eyes and I'm 5'6. My skin is ivory, has a yellow tone but somewhat tan.
Anyways , my moms side of the family live along the coast. Away from Sidney but hey who cares. They're not very involved.
My aunt lives in Sidney tho. And Sharis mom is bestfriends with my mom and aunt. That's how me and Shari met and how Luke and Shari got together. It was always them and then me. They were always closer. I had myself. And cal I guess when it hit 9th grade.
Then the next year I left. And now I'm a senior and I'm back. This is weird haha.
We pull into the parking lot and I can already feel my heart drop.
I went on my phone before exiting the car and took a cute filtered selfie and captioned it "here's to you America 🇺🇸"
Putting my phone down I got out of the car taking one last breath of the polluted air.
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Getting on the plane Felt weird. It felt unnatural. I was so used to being here in the states that leaving almost seems more terrifying than staying.
As we take our seats my heart begins pounding and I can feel my facee heat up. I can almost hear the voices in my head speaking to me in real life.
