moments.

four

johnny's pov
four years later

let's just get this out of the way. since i was young, i've liked mackenzie ziegler. she was just so perfect- funny, and pretty, and honestly, my person. we just got each other, and i felt so lucky to have had her in my life. i liked her a lot. i knew she didn't feel the same way, so i never told her about the way i felt. i never told anyone. i never made a move.

actually, that last part isn't entirely true.

flashback

a tearful melissa loaded up the last bag in the car and hugged my mom tightly. greg was chatting with my dad sadly, and lauren and maddie and kenzie were huddled together, completely in tears.

i was a wimp. i couldn't even bring myself outside the house. everyone was gathered around the driveway, saying saddened goodbyes, and i was standing in the doorframe, wiping my tears. i didn't want to go outside, i didn't want to admit that they were leaving.

kenzie looked away from lauren and toward me, noticing that i wasn't coming outside. she mumbled something in lauren's ear quickly and then left them. oh no. she was coming over to me. i considered locking the door, but i knew i had to say something. i knew i had to say goodbye.

she entered the house and reached me. i turned away.

"johnny. look at me." she said quietly. "this hurts me, too."

"i know." i didn't look up. "i'm sorry i'm being such a baby about this, i just..." i sighed, stopping myself. "you can't go."

"i don't want to." she said grabbing my arm gently and forcing me to look up.

"kenzie, im gonna miss you." i said, my voice thick with tears.

"fuck, john, you think i'm not gonna miss you just as much?" she said, crying more now.

and then i couldn't help it.

she looked so vulnerable. she was sobbing, and she still looked so gorgeous. her eyes lured me in. the girl literally has no flaws. i couldn't resist her. not anymore. not knowing that this would be the last time i saw her.

putting my hands on her waist, i drew her to me slowly, and she looked surprised. then i presses my lips against hers and kissed her. she was in shock, but she started to kiss me back, and she laced her fingers around my neck. i pulled away after a while, crying more than before.

"johnny, i-" she said, staring into my eyes, her face inches from mine.

"goodbye, mackenzie." i mumbled, and let go of her waist, trying to pretend like nothing happened. "don't forget to text."

flashback over

after they moved, the zieglers contacted us for 2 years or so, and we met up a couple times, but by the time i turned 18, i had almost forgotten they existed. (lie, lie, lie. i was trying my hardest, since they had sure as hell forgotten about me.)

me and lauren (now 17) are currently off to LA for some photo shoot thing. i was kind of big on music now, and a little famous. not extremely- but some of my songs did hit top charts.