This silence between tom and I just got even more awkward. And I decided maybe to crack some small talk? Hopefully that'll not only make me feel better, and break this silence.
"Hey... I'm sorry for being a bit of a jerk" I spoke in a guilty tone. Honestly, I was pretty sorry. He was just trying to make things better. And I just made things worse
"No! Its fine" tom looked down at me. Giving me a grin. That darn grin...
"I'd understand who you would be going through this. Cause I've been through it, after my father died.." The grin on the black-eyed mans face quickly disappeared, and turned into a saddened frown.
I felt kinda bad for the guy... I mean, he did loose his dad. One of the people closest to him. Now that I think of it... Tom and I have a lot in common
"I see..." I nodded my head, and looked down at he ground
"But why do you seem so happy all the time? Even after edds passing?" I asked calmly, looking up once again. Locking eyes with the man
"Well... I-i am pretty upset about edds passing. But I've learned to contain my feelings. To not make everything worse" he answered my question
What? Is he saying that letting your emotions out for someone you loved makes things worse?
"What do you mean... By containing your feelings?" I ask, my eyes narrowed, and my eyebrows furrowed
"Well... When I didn't do what you are doing with your emotions, it didn't make things worse for everyone-" tom stopped himself. Asif he just said something that he didn't realise could cause problems
Are you kidding me, tom? You're literally saying that me grieving is making it worse for everyone else!
"Oh, so you're telling me, that I'm making things worse for everyone?" I raised my voice a little. And I let go of his hand, stopping in my tracks.
"N-no! That's not at all what I meant!" Guilt and panic filled his nonexistent eyes
"Really?? Cause you clearly said that me not masking my emotions is just making things worse for everyone else!" My voice got louder. I took a step closer to tom, jabbing my finger into his chest, making him back up a little
"you're the one making things worse! You knew I liked edd! And ever since he died, that would be all you talk about!'
I saw the panicked tom look had, turned into a pissed look.
"I wasn't trying to hurt you, (Y/N)!" He snapped at me, which really surprised me. "I was just wanting to help you, But no! All you did was shut us out! Maybe you are making things worse!" He looked down upon me, making me feel o)verpowered by this man
"If that's what you really think! Its fine! Its not like I liked you anyways!" I yelled back at him, shoving him.
But since he's much taller, he only stumbled a little.
Ok... I like tom. And now I admitted that. And accepting that. And now, he hates me.
Tom nodded, he backed away from me, and sighed. "Alright... You like me. And I thought I did too" he turns away, and walks off.
What have I done? What have I done??
I already felt tears forming. And instantly, hot tears streamed down my cheeks. And sobs escaped my mouth.
That's the second time that's happened. I lost somebody I loved. And now, I don't know what I'll do...
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Forgetting The Past (Tom X Reader) (SLOW UPDATES)
Romance(First time making this kind of x reader, so agh) Edd is dead. And it was tragic for everybody. Especially you. You loved edd. But he died before you could confess your feelings towards him. You've been going through the seven stages of grief. Eve...
