Amnesia Z.M {Edited}

02.

Zayn

At dinner my mom and sisters asked Perrie and I questions. It was fine till my mom brought her up.

"Zayn I just noticed how she is like Tuesday in so many ways," my mom says smiling.

"Tuesday?" Perrie asks confused.

"Tuesday is his ex-girlfriend, but she left to America." My younger sister says.

"You never told me about Tuesday," Perrie says and I feel like my whole world is crashing down. "Excuse me." I say softly, I leave the table and I run out the front door. I dart to the park that had far to many memories and I cried. I kept crying because she left!

Did she ever really love me?

Did she move on?

Was this all a lie?

I couldn't take this no more! I couldn't move on because I still loved Tuesday!

Flashback

"Zayn give me my hat back!" Tuesday giggles running after me. "No way, I think it looks good on me." I say modeling it off. "You wish," she smirks and I run faster.

"Wish? Oh, honey, I don't need to wish. I'm a sex god," I smile and she still chases me.

"You are no sex god," she giggles. "Are you saying you don't want any of this?" I gasp motioning down my body. She finally catches up to me and we collapsed on the ground.

"I love you Zayn," she tells me smiling.

"I love you Tuesday," I tell her smiling bigger. She puts her hand out, "Forever?"

"Always!"

Present

I wonder if she's happy now. Did she ever move on? Or find somebody better?

"Hey Zayn, your mom told me you might be down here." Perrie startles me, she walks to sit next to me. She wipes away my tears, something Tuesday use to do.

"Why didn't you tell me about this Tuesday?" She asks me then lays next to me on the ground. "Because I hate her," I say simply.

"Doesn't seem like it," she tells me.

"It's complicated," I mumble.

"Explain to me."

"I can't, I need to collect myself before I'm ready." She nods her head understanding.

"You still love her?" Perrie asks me after a while.

"I hate her, I hate how she cared for me! I hate how she seemed so perfect to me. I hate how she had the most amazing voice. I hate how sometimes she's on my mind constantly and I can't stop thinking about her. I hate how we planned a future and she left. I hate her," I tell Perrie and she laughs a little.

"I had an ex, I loved him. And I still do! I still think of him when I'm with you," I nod when she tells me this.

"What happened?" I ask her.

"He died," she says slowly. I see a tear leave her eye and I wipe it away. "He wanted to surprise me on my 17th birthday and he got into a car crash and died. I blame myself but I don't do it long because I know he wouldn't want that," I give her a hug knowing that if it was me that's what I would want.

"He is like you in so many ways, I keep feeling like you could do so much better than me because I wanted to get over him. I love you, but not in that way." I smile at her.

"I feel the same way," she smiles.

"We can't just break up though, people will want to know why. But let's stay friends, be Zerrie for everybody." I nod agreeing.

"Your amazing Perrie Edwards!"

"Your amaZayn Zayn Malik!"

We laugh as we start walking back to my house.

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