A Shooters Love

Chapter 15

*I'm sorry if this chapter sucks. this is my first time writing this type of scene and I'm nervous about posting it but hope at least a few will like and how their relationship is evolving
It had been two weeks since we ditched the zeros and taken their supplies and cars. Unfortunately the supplies were starting to run low and we were down to one car that had seen better days. On the brighter side the rendezvous points that Citizen Z informed us about was a day or so walk from where we had to stop. Although, it is pretty hard to try and fix a car when it is storming outside, well Vazquez was really the one trying to fix the car while Warren watched his back. The rest of us ended up taking refuge in the abandoned gas station we had stopped at.
Murphy had propped his feet up onto the counter of the register and was flipping through a magazine that was god knows how old. Doc and 10k were going through some of the left over supplies we had and looking through the inventory that had not been looted already. Addy sat near me messing with the radio as I sat against the wall trying to block out the sound of the thunder rumbling outside.  "Addy be honest with me. Am I pathetic," I asked quietly as she stopped fiddling with the radio, "What makes you think that," she asked, "I can take down zs left and right without batting an eye most of the time but I get reduced to a whimpering mess as soon as a storm comes around," I said.
She sighed, "Well lots of people really don't like storms so I don't think it's pathetic at all," she told me as I smiled which quickly turned into a frown when another loud clap happened. She put the radio down completely and turned towards me, "Ok let's talk about something to take your mind away from the storm," she suggested, "Ask me something, anything." I was quiet for a minute as I was trying to word this question correctly as I dark blush painted my face, "Well this is kind of embarrassing but do you have any tips or advice you could give me when it comes to thinking your 'first time'," I asked quietly as her eyes widened and a grin spread across her face.
She stood up and held her hand out for me, "Come on honey lets go into the back where we can talk more privately," she said eyes the guys around us as I grasped her hand and stood up. I followed her into the back of the gas station as she shut and locked the door. "Well what all do you know about sex," she suddenly asked as I stayed quiet, "You have to know something," she said as I shrugged, "What am I supposed to say I went to a school that required a uniform, pretty sure Sex Ed wasn't the top priority there," I said rubbing my face, " I mean my mother gave me the talk but what I'm trying to figure out is if I'm the one who is supposed to make the first move or what." Addy started at me for a few minutes just blinking, "God sometimes you are too pure for this world," she shook her head, "Sorry," I mumbled looking down. 
"Now what has brought this up," she asked taking a seat on some crates as I leaned against the wall picking at my nails, "Well 10k and I have been together for a while and we've shared a few intimate moments here and there. And it's not like I don't want to go further in our relationship it's just that, well, I don't know how and when I try and think about how to bring this up to him I just end up getting flustered and tongue tied," I confessed to her and she sat there listening to me and nodding. "What makes you so nervous," she questioned as I shrugged, "Honestly I'm not sure, 10k is the only guy I've ever been in a relationship with. I mean I've have had a crush or two on a few guys before the apocalypse but I've never dated anyone," I confessed to her.
We were both silent for a bit as she gathered her thoughts, "Is it because of your scars," she asked as my eyes widened and I remained silent. She noticed my reaction and decided not to press that subject any further as she walked over and put an arm around me, "Well the most important advice I can give you would be to let everything run naturally. Neither of you should try nor force something you aren't ready for," she told me as I nodded taking mental notes. "Now let me go into a little more detail about a few things," she said as for the next half hour she told me about different important things I should remember in case things do run their course naturally and things happen sooner rather than later. As we walked out of the room Addy had a proud smile on her face from having the opportunity to share her knowledge with someone and my face decided to develop into a new shade of red.
Warren and Vazquez came back inside shaking off an umbrella they had been using, "Well the car's no good, and it looks like we'll have to make the rest of the trip on foot," she said as Vazquez stepped forward. "Warren and I agreed that we should back track to the neighborhood we passed coming here and take shelter till the storm passes by," Vazquez said as we all nodded. "10k and I found a couple more umbrellas in the back," Doc said putting them on the counter, "We're going to have to share though,"10k said picking on up for him and I to use, "Then let's go before the storm gets any worse," Warren said as we followed her outside.
10k held it over us as I clung to his side as we walked in the freezing rain, "What happened to sunny California," I asked sarcastically as I gripped his shirt tighter from the lightning strike, "The apocalypse happened," Doc said as he held the umbrella over him and Murphy. We walked for miles as the wind blew more rain into our faces, "We should be getting close," Vazquez said as Murphy tensed up and looked behind us, "We better hurry up I can feel a small horde headed straight for us," he told us as we all picked up the pace. Finally the shapes of houses came into our sights as we rushed up the first one we saw and gathered around the small covered porch. Addy turned the door handle but it wouldn't budge, "Damn it," she sighed turning to us, "Doc can you help me out," she asked as he bent down and began to try and pick the lock.
I looked to the house next door and noticed that one of the windows was broken open above the low hanging porch, 'We probably have a better chance getting into that house,' I though as Murphy suddenly turned around. "Guys they're getting closer," he said as we began to hear the groans of zs , "How's it coming Doc," Warren asked frantic as he was still fiddling with the lock, "I've almost gotten it, Murphy can you use your voodoo magic," he asked. "I can but I might now be able to focus on all of them," he said holding up his hands. A few of them started to turn away but some still came at us, "We have to do something," Vazquez said pulling out his gun, "We need higher ground."
I looked back towards the lower porch, "10k follow me," I instructed as he nodded and we ran next door, I grabbed the trash can that laid on its side and put it right side up before climbing on it and grabbing the bottom of the edge and pulled myself onto the roof before helping 10k on. "10k ditch the umbrella for a bit I'm going to need your help shooting," I said, "What are you doing," Warren yelled as 10k and I pulled our guns out, "We'll aim for the stragglers from up here," I yelled back as they nodded. The rain drenched 10k and I as we shot at the z's for the next few minutes, "I've got it come on," Doc yelled as the door opened and they ran inside, 10k and I we to jump down but the horde swarmed the houses blocking our means of escape as the others slammed the door shut.
"Now what," I asked as the zs tried to reach us, 10k looked around his hair sticking to his face, "The window," he said as we carefully crawled to the window and pulled ourselves inside. We sat on the floor soaking wet as the rain continued to pour down, "Stay here I'm going to go and make sure everything is secure downstairs," he told me as I nodded, "Be careful," I said quietly as he nodded and left. "Are you guys ok?" I heard Doc yelled as I looked out the window, "We're fine Doc," I called back, "Good, Warren says were going to stay till the storm and zs clear out," he said, "Sounds good," I said. I waved bye to him as I stood up rubbing my arms to generate some heat, 'we should fine away to block the window and some dry cloths,' I thought as I left the room, I glanced down the stairs, "10k?" I called as he appeared at the bottom, "Hey everything's secure down here," he said as I nodded, "Warren said that we're going to stay and wait for the storm to pass," I told him. "We should find some dry clothes or something before we get sick," he said as I nodded.
He met me back upstairs as we searched through the different rooms, "I found some blankets," I called opening a closet up, "Cool I found some cloths," 10k said as he handed me a bundle of clothing, "The bathroom is down there if you need some privacy," he said as I nodded and made my way to the room. I shut the door, placing the clothes on the edge of the sink before I started peeling off the layers of clothing I was wearing and hung them above the bath tub to try and air dry as I set my gun holster and gloves onto the sink. I pulled on the t-shirt and it fell to my knees before I stepped into the flannel pants tightening them as much as I could but they still hung loosely off my hips.
"Hey 10k how long do you think it'll take for the clothes to dry," asked stepping down the stairs as I gathered my hair into a bun and secured it. I found him in the kitchen looking through the cabinets, "Probably a few hours at the most," he told me as I nodded, the sounds of the rain hitting the roof and the z's scratching at the doors was oddly comforting as I took a seat on the counter. "Anything good in there," I asked as he pulled out some vegetables that had been canned in mason jars, "Maybe? Want to find out," he asked with a smile as I jumped off and picked up one of the jars as he grabbed another one, "Let's see what's in can #1," he said opening it to reveal sweet potatoes, "Nice," I said opening mine up to find apples. Opening up the rest we find a lovely spread of vegetables and fruits that had been preserved and still tasted pretty good.
After we ate through most of the food we tried to figure out what to do now, "It's getting dark out, maybe we should find something as a light source," I suggested. "I'll check upstairs if you want to check down here," he suggested as I nodded. I heard him walking around upstairs as I found some candles and matches, "10k I found some candles," I called up the stairs as I lit one and set it down when I heard a crash from upstairs, I grabbed one of the fire pokers that laid next to the fire place and ran to the stairs but 10k came down quickly, "Its fine," he said quickly, "What was that," I asked worried as he put his hands on my shoulders, "I was covering up the window and slipped on a puddle," he told me as I sighed with relief.
We lit the remaining candles that we had found downstairs and settled on the couch just talking about things to keep us distracted. "Are you cold," he asked as he caught me rubbing my arms repeatedly, "Kind of," he stood up from the couch and went to the fire place, "Maybe we can start a fire," he said as he picked up one of the logs, "why is this wood plastic," he questioned as I laughed lightly, "Probably because this is California and they mostly used it as a decoration," I said as he stood up and went into the kitchen. He walked back in carrying one of the wooden chairs, "What are you doing with that," I asked him as he looked at me with a smile before breaking the chair, "Making fire wood," he said as he continued to break the chair.
Once it was in smaller pieces he put them in the fire place and grabbed the matches, "Don't you need a fire starter," I asked getting up as he slapped his forehead, "How could I forget," he smiled as he grabbed some old magazines and crumped them up. He placed them around the broken wood and lit the paper on fire as the wood soon also caught fire and I settled in front of it starting to warm up. I felt him take a seat behind me and pull me into his lap wrapping us up into a blanket. "Are you warmer," he asked putting his head on my shoulder as I smiled, "Yes thank you," I said turning my head and kissing his check.
We continued to sit there in a bundled heap as the fire crackled softly and the rain continued to pelt the roof. His arms were wrapped around my waist as I leaned into him with my eyes closed just relaxing. I felt him shift as I opened my eyes and i turned my head towards him, "You ok," I asked as he nodded shifting around some as I felt something press against my back. Both of our eyes went wide as I realized what was pressed against me, "Um," I started to say but his grip on me tightened and he buried his head into my back hiding, "I'm sorry I try to control it but I can't help it lately after what almost happened in Mexico its on my mind a lot," he confessed.
I pulled his arms away from me and turned to face him as I sat on my knees pulling his face to look at me. "10k I-I feel the same way. I haven't been trying to avoid what almost happened. It's  just we never really had any alone time these last two weeks," I said as he stared into my eyes, "We're alone now though," he said quietly as he leaned in and captured my lips in a tender kiss. I closed my eyes tilting my head to the side as our lips moved together slowly; I felt his hands slide down to my hips as he gently pulled me to sit on his lap as I felt his hard on rubbing against me.
I pulled back to look into his eyes, a heavy blush on both of our faces as he kept his hands on my hips, "what is it," he asked quietly as I smiled shyly, "I'm just nervous," I said as he brought one hand up and brushed away some stray hairs from my face. "I'm nervous too," he confessed, "but I won't do anything unless you were ready. I would never force you to do something you are not comfortable with." His words made me smile as I gave him a quick kiss and stood up grabbing a candle, "Where are you going," he asked still sitting on the ground trying to cover up the obvious boner, "I'm going to freshen up. Met me in the bed room," asked as he nodded and I smiled heading upstairs.
I set the candle on the top of the toilet and shut the door. I turned the knob on the tub and a slow stream of water came out. I plugged the tub and let the water fill the tub up a bit before I stopped it, the water was not hot but it was not cold at the same time. I slipped the pants off and then the shirt as I set my feet into the tub and then slid in fully. I gasped at how cold the water actually was as I picked up the bar of soap and lathered it. I glanced towards the door as I heard 10k quickly run pass and I chuckled going back to washing off some of the grime that stuck to me. I glanced and saw a razor setting on the side and picked it up, in the glow of the candle it still looked usable so I lathered up my legs and began to shave them wincing as I nicked myself a couple of times.
I pulled the plug and reached for the towel that hung on the wall, wrapping it tightly around my body before I stepped out. I secured the towel around me as I felt it brush up against the brand and scars on my back. I looked into the mirror as the thunder rolled outside and glanced towards the candle still burning brightly. As I blinked there was a loud clap of thunder as lightning stuck something outside causing the room to illuminate. My eyes widened as the candles flame turned into a searing hot metal brand that came closer to me as I screamed, backing into the wall as I slid down screaming the entire way. Oliver's face continued to flash in my memories as my breathing quickened and my screams got louder.
I heard footsteps run down the hall and stop outside the door, "Aly!" 10k yelled pounding on the door as I cowered more into the wall. I heard the door being kicked in as 10k ran inside and kneeled down in front of me, "Hey what is wrong," he asked lifting my head up and brushing away the tears as I took in quick yet short breathes, "Oliver," I mumbled as he looked at me with saddened eyes, "Look at me he not here he cannot hurt you anymore," he said quietly pulling me into him. He stroked my back as I tried to steady my breathing, his hand passed over one that was near my shoulder and I quickly pushed away from him. "Aly," he spoke quietly as I shook in fear, "D-Don't I-I don't want you to see them," I said as he stared towards me. "Sweet heart I've seen them before remember in the lab and when we were at the river," he said reaching out for my hands but I pulled them into my chest and shook my head.
"You have not ever seen how bad they really look only Addy and Casandra have. I never ever want you to see them," I said quietly, 'Addy was right, I can't keep lying to myself. These scars are the reason I'm so nervous,' I thought not daring to look at his face, "Aly," he said as I curled more into myself, "They're hideous, Oliver was right anyone that saw them can't love someone like me," I whispered as the tears poured out of my eyes. "Aly!" he yelled making me look at him; he had tears gathered in his eyes, "Stop putting yourself down. He doesn't get to define who you are anymore," he said as he reached for my hands again and this time I let him hold them.
"I will say this over and over until you believe me; I love you just the way you are. I fell in love with your soul and your personality not just the way you look. I don't care about the scars you have, I mean I do care but not that they make you any less of a person," he said getting his words mixed up as my tears slowed down, "What I'm trying to say is that even though you have these scar and issues both physically and emotionally I still love you," he told me as I smiled.
"Beside you aren't the only one that has a bunch of scars," he said looking down as I looked at him, "10k," I asked as he let go of my hand and pulled the sleeve of his shirt up and held one out for me. I gently grabbed his wrist and pulled it closer to me examining his skin as my eyes widened and my heart dropped, "10k," I whispered looking into his guilty eyes, "I stopped once I met all of you but after losing mom, dad and the whole world ending everything just got to be too much and I needed an outlet," he said through the tears as I traced the thin white lines that I just noticed covered his arms.
I leaned up and embraced him tightly as he clung to me tightly, "It's going to be ok, I'm here," I whispered stroking his hair as he cried on me. We sat there in silence as I realized that the lights were on, "10k how are the lights on," I asked as he pulled back wiping at his eyes, " I think the lightning that struck must have had enough energy to turn the electricity back on," he guessed as I nodded. I held one of his hands bringing it up to my lips as I pressed a soft kiss to his knuckles before turning around with my back facing him, he put his hand on my shoulders, "If you aren't comfortable you don't have to show me," he said as I looked back with a smile.
"I trust you," I said quietly as he nodded and I turned back and stared straight ahead as I felt his hands slide down and bring the towel down. I pulled the towel around to cover my chest as I felt his hands trace over each of the scars and tiny burns that littered my back until he stopped at the O that had been branded into the middle of my back. "What did he use," he asked quietly, "The smaller ones are cigarette burns, and the longer gashes are from where he dragged a knife across my skin. The welted areas are where he repeatedly beat me with a belt," I said quietly. We sat in silence as he traced over each area carefully, I tensed suddenly when I felt him light kiss each of the scars before pressing a long kiss to the brand as my face heated up.
I turned towards him clutching the towel to my chest as he smiled and cupped my face, "Scares or no scares you are one of the most beautiful person I know," he said as he pulled me in and kissed me as I put my hands on his arms as I kissed him back pulling myself to be closer to him. I felt my towel slip down my chest as he pulled away and smiled at me; his eyes looked down and widened, "Um Aly I can see your um," he was gesturing towards my chest as I looked down before covering my chest with my arms. "S-sorry," I said as he smiled at me before gently putting his hands on mine, "May I" he asked as I nodded and let my arms fall to my side as he smiled, "Wow," he said as I blushed more.
"Don't stare at them," I said as he gave me a smirk and leaned in closer to me, "How bout I touch them instead of staring," he said as one of his hands cupped my one of my breast and he started kneading it as I moaned, "How about a taste," he asked as he dipped his head down and I blushed. Before anything could happen another strike of lightning hit causing me to scream and the lights cut out. "Seriously," I heard him say in front of me as we sat in the dark. "Do you want to move to the room," he asked, "Sure," I said as he dropped his hand from my chest and I felt him stand up. I gathered my towel back around me and before I could stand I felt him slip his arms around my waist and under my knees. "10k," I squealed as I wrapped my arms around his neck.
He carefully walked out the door and down the hallway, I saw a faint glow as we reached the door and I gasped softly as the entire room was lit up with candles placed around. "You did this," I asked as I turned his head towards me as he grinned again, "Well it wasn't the zs who did this," he said as I smiled towards him pressing my lips against his as he walked in the room softly closing the door with his foot. He walked towards the bed as the kiss ended and he laid me down on the bed. He began to pull his shirt off and took off his jeans as I sat up pulling my knees up to my chest as he sat on the bed in front of me only in his boxers.
We looked at each other briefly before looking away, both of us blushing wildly not sure what to say or do. I jumped slightly when I felt him put a hand on my knee, "Are you ok," he asked as I nodded, "Just nervous," I confessed as he smiled, "Me too," he said as I relaxed a little and moved closer to him, "you were pretty confident a moment ago," I whispered as I pressed a kiss to his lips. His hands moved to my face and held it in place as he kissed back tilting our heads to the side. I felt him nudge me forward as I lay back onto the pillows and he hovered above me breaking the kiss. His hands moved down to the towel as he looked at me, I nodded and the towel loosened around me before I could feel the coldness of the room around me. His hands rested on pillows next to my head as he soaked in my bare body, "Say something," I whispered to him as I was growing anxious, "Your beautiful," he said back as he bent down kissing me again.
I kissed him back with an equal amount of passion as I gasped feeling one of his hands slide down from my neck, down my chest and rest on my hip. He pulled back a bit a small stream of saliva connecting our lips as his eyes looked at my chest before, "What never seen a pair of breasts," I asked not holding back the sarcasm as he chuckled, "Nope," he confessed chucking in embarrassment as I smiled and I grabbed the hand on my hip and led it back up to rest on one of my breasts. His hand was warm as he grasped at my breast beginning to knead at it as I let out a small moan, "Does this feel good," he asked as I nodded, "How about this," he asked but before I could answer his head bent down and he latched onto my other breast.
I let out a louder moan as I felt him sucking on the bud as his hand began to play with the other. He continued on with this for a few more moments before switching breasts and repeating the treatment. I was panting at this point from the pleasure being brought on before me when he finally stopped looking at me as he smiled. I looked at him with half lidded eyes as he smiled towards me, I smiled back sitting up with him following me as I made him lay on his back. He sat up on his forearms as I swung my legs straddling his waist as I smiled at him.
"You have me feeling this pleasure so now it's my turn," I said as he smiled towards me as encouragement. I leaned forward kissing his lips before pulling away and began kissing his neck; he tensed up but quickly relaxed as I made my way down till I stopped at the waist of his boxers. I saw his boner pressed up against the fabric of his underwear as he smiled sheepishly, with slightly trembling fingers I placed my hand on it as I felt him gasp and quickly pulled my hand away, "I'm sorry," I said quickly as he sat up, "Hey it's fine," he said as I stared at him, "Did I hurt you," I asked as he shook his head smiling, "no it felt good," he assured me. I nodded and he lay back down as I carefully began to massage him through the fabric as he moaned lowly.
My heart was pounding as I stopped rubbing him and instead grasped the waist of his boxers and began to slide them down. He sprang free from his cotton confinements and slapped against his thigh. All I could do was sit on my knees staring at the size of him while he kicked off his underwear, "What never seen a penis before," he asked with the same light sarcasm I had as I shook my head wide eyed. He smiled as I nodded tucking a strand of hair that had come loose from my bun behind my ear as I bent down once more.
I took him into my hand gently applying a bit of pressure as he groaned laying his head back on the bed. I stroked him with my hand for a minute before dipping my head down as I opened my mouth a bit and stuck my tongue out slowly licking the tip. He shuddered out a moan which seemed to encourage me to continue as with each breath I took in more of him until I couldn't any more. I sat still trying to figure out what I should do next as Addy's voice echoed in my head as I closed my eyes and began to lightly suck on him. He's moaning increased as did the sucking on him and bobbing my head up and down.
'This isn't so bad,' I thought as he was panting and moaning, "s-op," he was trying to say something but his moaning was preventing me from making out what he was trying to say. I felt his hands snake into my hair as he sat up pulling me off him, "Stop," he breathed out as we were both panting, I sat back on my knee as tears gathered in my eyes.