Bulimia | MYG

One

"Y/n."

"What is it?"

"Come with me for a moment." MiMi takes my arm and we rush toward an empty classroom.

"I've been noticing something a little off. And as your best friend I need to know what's wrong. So I bought you this." Mijin slaps down a white spiral notebook on a random wooden desk.

"Why..?"

"It's gonna be a journal for you. Like a diary."

"But--"

"Open it up. I bought this stupid thing special for you so you better use it. So you're assignment for tonight--"

"Are you a teacher now?" You say while giggling a bit.

"Hell yeah. But you need to decorate tonight, so it doesn't get lost or fall into the wrong hands."

"Do I have to?"

"Yes, you do. Now write. You should write one every day. And I'll be checking to see if you did or not."

"F-fine... MiMi.. I don't know how to do this."

"Y/n, are you serious? You've had a diary before, right?"

"No."

"Wow. Alright then. Just title it... entry one.. or some stupid shit. Put the date too."

"Alright.."

You looked down at the first sheet of an empty spiral notebook and fiddled with the pencil in your hand...

Entry #1 - 10/14

Why am I doing this? Because my new counceler, aka my best friend Mijin is making me. It's supposed to be good for me. Let's just hope it is..

"MiMi this feels stupid."

"It will at first but it's a good thing. Keep writing. Just write down what your feeling."

"Ok."

I'm tired.. Not sleepy. But it's almost like I'm exhausted for no reason. It's fucking horrible. Mijin is gonna take me out for dinner tonight. "Skin and bones," she says. I'm not. I'm huge.. That's why I do this. I want to be like them. Like her... Like him.

Yoongi. I love him. But he can never know about this. I hate that I have to keep this away from him but I need to.

Freak, he said.

Insane, he said.

Maybe he was right. Maybe Jin was right. I loved him so much, but after he found out, he said that and dropped me completely. I hate it. I hate being the freak. I hate being the insane one. It's 'cause I'm fat. I already know.

That's why I do this.

So I can stay thin.

"Jeez.. I didn't expect that much to come out right off the bat. It's a great start. Now what is this thing you're talking about?"

"W-what? O-oh it's nothing!"

"So you say Jin left you and called a freak and insane for nothing?"

Her look softens as she sees the pained look on your face.

She sighs and takes your hand in hers. "Y/n. You can tell me anything. We've been best friends for the longest time. You can trust me. I'll never leave."