Where's My Love Story?

Breaking Point

I honestly wasn't surprised but when I didn't say anything it probably made it seem so.

"Are you ok? Are you still there?"

Scarlett sounded a bit worried. I don't even know why she would be.

"Yea yea. I was just trying to registrar it I guess." I answered with complete confidence and I sounded completely fine.

"Are you sure? I don't want you doing anything stupid now."

I look around and see if there's anything more interesting than this conversation.

"Hey, I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. I can take this in a mature way."

She was quiet for a bit. I was about to hang up when I heard her speak.

"Well take care of yourself and I hope you get better soon."

I could tell she was smiling. Yes! That's all wanted. I didn't want both of us leaving this talk without a smile. I answered,

"Oh I'll make it by, slowly but I'll make it. Haha you have a good day Scarlett."

She laughed, a small little laugh that gave me enough reason to believe that she wasn't sad.

"Haha alright then. Hope you have a good day too."

*click*

Did that suck or what??

Oh would you shut up? I don't need you here now. I walked over to the sink and finished washing the egg off my plate. I wish I could wash you away as easily you freaking dick. In case you're confused, I'm talking to myself. He comes up when I haven't taken my antidepressants in awhile. Almost like an internal gauge letting me know I have to take antidepressants again.

Now you're telling your friend about me?? But not Scarlett? The one you had a chance with?

I said shut up dammit! I don't have a chance with Scarlett and I like this person. They've been with me through everything so far and I'm glad they did. I'm happy I have someone to talk to other than you!

I walked back to my living room, actually more like limped. I made my way to the couch and took my time sitting down. I picked up the Xbox controller as turned it on. I sat there watching the little animation it does. Four little words that seem to run my life. I'm ok with that.

I played some CoD game for awhile. After awhile they just seem like a shooter with new graphics. I didn't mind. As long as I can shoot something in a first person view. I mean, why else are you buying a shooter game? Story, maybe. If it's a compelling game and runs on the story then I understand.

And I lost another match. Maybe I'm jut too distracted by things. I may not want to play this game anymore. I put the controller down and turned off the TV. I sat there in silence, thinking of what I could do next.

I didn't had anything to do, I could sit here all day or I could do something productive. It's all on me and I have no idea what to do. What do you think I should do?? Should I just stay home and heal up? I don't have school for the next week. Should I jut rest or should I go home for a couple days?? Tell me. Let me know please, I don't know what to do.

People can handle much more stress than this but I just need to get away. I want to go home but I think I should heal up. My stitches wouldn't go well on a greyhound bus.

"Please, I want your idea on this. What should I do?"