Smiling For You/ yoonmin ff

XII

The sound of the alarm always crept into Taehyung's nightmares. The beeping switching between a ticking time bomb to a monster's every step. However, no nightmare could truly capture the terror that an ordinary alarm clock held for the orange haired boy.

Alarm clocks told him to wake up. WAKE UP! But, Tae knew what would be in store for each and every day that the continuous beeps woke him up to.

Snickering homophobes. Crushes not noticing. Lonely lunches. Lingering glances. Stolen moments. Beatings. Punches. Slaps. Pain.

That was everyday of school. Every single one. He'd passed through his entire high school experience with that crippling sensation of pain. Finally free, another sensation ticked at the back of the 18 year old's mind... A much, much darker notion that he didn't quite understand yet.

"TAE!!! Get your ass down here and help me with the dishes!" The familiarity of Jin hyung's voice waking him up instead of electrical beeping allowed the younger to escape from his harrowing thoughts.

"Aish Jinnie! I'll be down in a minute!"

"Now!!!"

"Agh, pabo. Making me walk all this way for fucking dishes. Goddamn it." Tae walked out of his room and screamed back, "I'm going!"

Once Tae reached the last step of his spiral staircase, he was met his a very surprising situation.

"Namjoon hyung?"

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"Please help me. Jinnie please. I need to find him."

Tae, feeling ignored, asked again. "Namjoon hyung???"

"Agh, I'm sorry Taehyung, I should've properly introduced myself. But fuck, I can't do that right now."

The youngest of the three, now confused, looked to his brother for answers.

"Taehyung ah, remember how we were talking about Namjoonie's brother, Yoongi?"

The cherry headed boy nodded, uncertain.

"Ok so Tae, my brother ran away. I need to find him soon. He could get hurt and I just know he wasn't in the right mindset when he left."

"Drunk?" Tae questioned.

"Maybe, but he kept repeating the same things about his life. Things I don't want him thinking."

"Joonie, have you checked with his friend? Goddamn it, what's his name? J-J-Jim-Something?"

A memory of stories Yoongi would tell Namjoon about the small boy replayed in his mind. Nam-Something. He chuckled. "Jimin. Of course. Yoon would have definitely gone to him."

"Jimin? As in Park?" Tae could recall a pink haired boy who would always wave to everybody. Always say 'hi'. The only boy that the cold Min Yoongi would smile at. Tae had always been envious.

"That exact one."

Taehyung nodded at the new information, staring blankly at the floor.

"Jinnie, will you come with me to look for him at Jimin's?"

The oldest smiled yes. "Okay Taehyung, we're gonna go. If you see him around here, call us, okay?"

"Yeah, yeah of course."

Then they were off. And yet again, Taehyung was left alone.

As he heard the car's engine start up, the red haired boy picked up his coat from the hanger, deciding to look for the missing boy.

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The early morning weather was chilly and the breeze felt nice as it pushed Taehyung's red locks ever so slightly.

Though he would never admit it, Tae was always very fond of the quiet boy. The few times that they had exchanged words, the older's cold attitude never failed to make Taehyung laugh.

So, hearing of his disappearance worried the boy more than he was willing to say. And for that exact fact, he went looking.

Tae was walking with no purpose as it seemed, until he made his way to a park. The trees there grew larger and in bigger amounts than anywhere else in the city. They offered shade and privacy for people to relax and have alone time to think.

It seemed like a place where Yoongi could've run off too, if he knew about the 'paradise' as Taehyung would often call it.

So he searched. And searched. And searched and searched and searched. He was looking for the quiet boy's face for so long, that he could feel his stomach growling from not eating breakfast and having the need to eat lunch. Jin hyung hadn't called him yet, but he needed to satisfy his hunger.

So he started to make his way out of the park, taking in the beauty of the trees and sky.

Then he saw something prettier than everything else.

A perfect something sat down in the grass, hidden away from the world besides the nosy cherry haired boy.

A gorgeous brunette.

Taehyung had found a beautiful boy with teeth like a bunny's and hair perfectly soft and wavy.

And in that moment where Tae first laid his eyes upon the boy, everything was perfect. He forgot all about his duties. All about the trees and the sky. He forgot all about everything else. Intently focused on the beauty radiating off of the bunny.

But then the moment ended, water slowly flowing from the eyes of the brown haired boy. Soon sobbing, feeling safe in the space given to him by nature. The privacy he thought he had allowing him to unleash every tear he had.

Watching this, Taehyung felt guilty. Guilty for intruding on such a vulnerable moment. Guilty for wanting to kiss away the tears. Guilty for watching the boy, filled with longing.

Then, the boy sat up abruptly, wiping away his tears on the overly large sleeve belonging to his overly large sweater. Quickly making his way out of the forest. Almost quick enough for the red haired to lose him. But, Taehyung couldn't let that happen.

So, he followed the tearful bunny.

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agh i didnt mean to publish this like five seconds agooooo, anyway, im bacc again and im kinda proud of this book?? i really wanna work on this more, so im gonna tryyyyyy

anyway, remember to eat your gays