My Bad Habit

The Deal Is Off

What's good guys? No? Oki. Yayayayay we just getting back in the groove of things, told ya wink wink. And idk why but my account was acting out and I couldn't respond to comments, but if you did, just know I was trying to tell you all thank you for reading. Anywhore, let's get on with the chapter.

Chapter 14: The Deal Is Off

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Shikamaru POV-

I woke up from my little cat nap in the classroom because of the sound of the door slamming open, Kakashi Sensei yelling at us all to get in our seats, a serious look on his face. Then he said something that had made my eyebrows furrow. Sai.. commited suicide? That's weird.

Oh well. Saved me some time.

There was an expected collective gasp of shock from around the classroom, and then, silence. In the meantime Kakashi set up the lesson on the board while explaining, " The ceremony will be held on the day that the festival would have been held on next week so it will be moved back to the week after. Without any interruption, I would like to get through this lesson class, thank you." And continue the class he did. I actually payed attention and took my own notes today, much to Ino's surprise. Nothing like some good old notes.

The class ended without a cinch and everyone got up to go to lunch in silence. Ino got up and muttered something about her duties in the student council club room so I let her be. I sat back in my seat, watching Kakashi get his stuff together for his next class. He looked up from his suitcase noticing me observing his actions, and started to walk out but he stopped and turned back to me. "I know you didn't see eye to eye with Sai but you could at least pretend to be sad." He said with a bit of disappointment in his eyes. Ugh.

"I am sad Kakashi Sensei, I don't know what you're talking about," I said trying to get him off my back. "Oh really? That smile you have on your face says otherwise, go to lunch." I looked shocked as he finally turned away and slid the door shut behind him. I didn't notice I was smiling.

See we live in a troublesome world. Its better not to care about anything at all, saves yourself the pain of it all. You see I personally don't give a shit about many things, almost all actually, but the one thing that's been a thorn in my side is my girlfriend. Honestly the only person I have ever cared about is Ino. And Choji but even he is dispensable. I need to get a grip, this is going to far even for me. Why is she such a drug to me? Why am i so addicted? Well that's easy to answer, her whole entity is so pure and something so unobtainable that now when I have her, I can't act accordingly. My darkness is obviously not good for her at all.

Why do I feel all of these things that I have never felt before now of all times? Aren't I supposed to leave her alone?

She's better off with out me. I will ruin her. My sole reason of purpose was to protect her from the background. At first it was easy, keeping those jerkwads from her fanclub in check, stopping gossip, let's not mention my reckless murder from when I was younger.

I am the troublesome one. It has nothing to do with Ino. I just couldn't accept the fact that these barbarians were trying to close in on my prey, to which I have bided my time with over and over again. Only to ruin her life when I finally come into the limelight.

I should probably just get out while I'm still ahead of the game. Shit, I just can't control myself. It's not good for her no matter how much she thinks it is. I almost had my way with her on the roof, thankfully I had some self restraint left in me at the last moment.

That does it. The deal is off.

She's better off without me anyways, this time, when I thought it, I felt a pang in my chest. This is what it feels like to care. To actually think of something outside of yourself. I hate it. I suddenly think of the tattoo I had gotten not too long ago. It's too much for her right now, she wasn't ready and she probably won't ever be. Getting up from my seat, I get out my cigarettes from my blazer jacket packing up my things, and go for a long drive, ignoring all calls, texts, and voicemails from the only person I have ever cared about. Ino, my only wish is that you can hate me as much as I love you.