I woke up and stayed in bed for a while, looking through my phone.
Then I put it down and rubbed my eyes as I sat up.
I got out of bed and into the shower, then I changed into some jeans and a white crop top.
I did some light make-up, and curled my hair a little, making it wavy and presentable.
I walked downstairs and into the kitchen.
I made myself some avocado toast and then I brushed my teeth.
Jonah told me he had moved in a house with his band mates, so he wasn't living in his house anymore.
He texted me asking if I wanted to come over, because he had to talk to me.
I instantly got anxious, and worried.
I got my car keys, and he sent me the address of the house.
So I drove off to the place, it was really beautiful.
I got out of the car and locked it.
I walked to the door, and then knocked on it.
I heard it open and saw Daniel brushing his teeth.
He waved not being able to say anything.
I chuckled and he motioned for me to come in, I nodded and walked inside.
Then I looked at him
"Is Jonah here?" I asked him.
He nodded and pointed at the stairs.
"Thanks" I said
I turned around and started walking towards the stairs.
Then I turned around and saw Daniel spitting the toothpaste
"The one on the far left" He said before I asked
"Thank you" I chuckled
He smiled and then walked to his room.
I knocked on the door
"Jonah?" I asked
"Come in" He said
I opened the door and walked in, he was sitting on his bed and then he got up, and pecked my lips.
"Don't worry it's not bad, I think" He said
"What do you mean you think" I said
Then he walked to his bed and patted his lap.
I sighed and sat on hit still looking at him.
"So I had to tell you that-" Jonah said.
But got interrupted by a curly headed guy coming in.
"Oh, I'm sorry... I'll just...uh..I'll leave" He said
Then he walked out and I turned back to Jonah.
He was looking down
"Jonah, please tell me I'm getting anxious" I said
"It's, were going on tour" He said
When he said that I immediately remembered what happened the last time he went on tour.
"Babe? Please say something" Jonah said
I snapped out of my thoughts.
"Oh, um.. I'm happy for you but.. the last time you left-" I said before he cut me off.
"Please don't, I don't want to think about that" He said
"You're right, I'm sorry" I said
"Look, we will leave tomorrow, so I want to spend today with you..please?" He said
"How long will you be there?" I asked
"Three months" He said
I nodded.
"So, will you?" He asked
"Yeah, of course I will" I said smiling.
Then he kissed me and when we pulled away I hugged him tightly.
"I'm going to miss you so much" I said onto his neck.
"I'll miss you too babe" he said, hugging me tighter.
We pulled away and he wiped a tear I didn't notice had escaped
"Well, what are we doing today" I asked.
"Today let's just go to the beach" He said.
I smiled and then got up.
"I need a swimsuit though"I said
He nodded.
"Okay, I'll meet you at the beach, in sunset" He said
"I'll see you then" I said
Then I pecked his lips and walked out of the room.
I walked downstairs and then drove back home.
I put a swimsuit on and some shorts.
Leaving the bikini top on.
Then I went downstairs and texted with Jonah for a long while.
Then when the sun was about to set, I took my bike and went to the beach.
When I got there, it was already Golden Hour, meaning it would be sunset anytime soon.
I looked around and then saw Jonah sitting on the sand, looking at the ocean.
I walked to him and without saying anything, I sat beside him
He put an arm around me and I layed my head on his shoulder, and he layed his head on mine.
There was silence, but not awkward silence, it felt... right.
"I'm gonna miss you like crazy" Jonah said
"I'll miss you the most" I said.
"Wanna go in the water?" Jonah asked
"Let's go" I said
Then he got up and grabbed my hand, helped me up.
Then he stayed there and I looked at him.
And after that he chuckled and picked me up, and started running with me.
I wrapped my legs around his torso, and held onto him tightly.
I just giggled as he ran making me bounce up and down.
And then the water hit me.
He stopped walking and the water was up to our waist, or my waist and his leg making me feel short as hell.
I smiled at him and then looked at the sunset.
"It's beautiful" I said
"Not more then you" Jonah said
I giggled and kissed him.
He kissed back and then pulled away.
"I love you Bella" Jonah said
"I love you too Hoenah" I said laughing.
"I'm tryna be romantic over here and then you just come at me with that nickname" He said laughing.
I laughed and put my arms around his neck.
Then I lay my head on his chest, looking at the orange and pink colors of the sky.
"I'll miss this" I said.
"Yeah, me too" He said wrapping his arms around my waist.
"Can we go home after this, and cuddle?" I asked
"Yes, we can, but not in my house, I share a room with Corbyn and Zach" He said
I laughed and then nodded
"Okay"
When the sunset was over, it was already really dark, and windy.
We went to his car and he took a hoodie from the backseats.
"Here" He said handing it to me.
I took it and cheered.
"Yay! One more for my collection" I said cheering.
Jonah laughed and I put it on.
Then we got in his car.
Then we drove to my house and walked inside.
I took my shorts off, and put some sweatpants on.
Then I went to the couch with Jonah, because we wanted to watch TV as we cuddled.
I got on top of him and wrapped my arms around him.
I burried my face in his chest and he put Netflix on.
Halfway through the movie, I looked up at him.
"What?" He asked
"I just need this to last forever" I whined
"You know, fuck it. We're making this night one to remember" he said as he picked me up and took me to my room.
I knew where this was going, and honestly I wanted it to happen.
He pinned me on my bed and got on top of me.
Then he started kissing my neck, letting soft moans escape my mouth.
He pulled away and looked at me.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked
"I am" I said.
He nodded and then there I was, making love with Jonah Marais, the love of my life.
I'm not putting any details because I swear I am a child of God
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The next day I woke up and I looked to my side, I saw Jonah, sleeping peacefully.
I smiled and sighed, looking at the ceiling.
Then I got up and went to the shower.
I showered and then I got ready, I put on a yellow shirt and some jeans.
Then I tied my hair into two French braids.
I did my make-up and when I was done I looked in the mirror and saw Jonah was waking up.
I looked at him and smiled.
Then I looked back into my closet and put on some yellow converse.
I walked back to the room and Jonah was done putting his clothes back on.
He put his shirt on and I looked at him.
"Morning Jo" I said
He turned around and smiled
"Morning" he said before pecking my lips once.
"At what time do you leave?" I asked
"At 12:00am" He replied
"Okay, it's nine" I said
"Will you come to the airport with me?" He asked
"Is that even a question?" I said laughing
He smiled and I kissed him again.
"Well, can we go to the house now?" He asked
"Sure" I said
Then we drove to their house and he went to his room to shower so I was talking with Mel and Daniel, because she wanted to be with Daniel too
And then we talked to the rest of the boys, to know them a little better.
And then Jonah came downstairs and sat next to me.
We kept talking for a while, and then it was time to go to the airport.
So we drove there and the flight was called, their families were here too.
They were saying goodbye to their parents and siblings.
But now it was time for me to say goodbye.
"Baby, I'm gonna miss you so much, and I promise I will FaceTime you everyday" He said
A tear escaped my eye and then I nodded
"I'm gonna miss you so much Jonah" I said as I hugged him.
He hugged me tightly and kisses my head.
"I love you" He whispered.
"I love you too" I whispered back.
I pulled away and he wiped my tears with his thumbs.
He held my face and then kissed me.
We pulled away and they started walking away.
And before he left he turned around and smiled at me
"BYE ISABELLA! I LOVE YOU" He yelled
"I LOVE YOU TOO" I yelled back.
And then he walked back out.
I smiled and sighed.
He's gone
Again
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Two months later..
I honestly haven't been feeling good, I get nauseous, and sometimes throw up.
I was telling Mel about it and she came over.
We were talking and then I said
"Can I tell you something?" I asked
"Yeah" She said
"The night before they left, Jonah and I, did 'it'" I said
Her eyes widened
"Wait what?!" She screamed
"And I think I might be pregnant" I whispered
"YOU THINK YOU WHAT?!" She yelled
I shushed her
"My parents are here!" I said
She nodded
"Have you taken tests?" She asked
I shook my head and then she said she would come back later with some.
She left and I stayed in my bed.
What if I'm actually pregnant
What if Jonah doesn't want the baby
What if my parents get mad
Honestly I am really scared, I'm only nineteen..
I sighed and then Mel came back with a plastic bag on her hand
"Here, take some and come back, if you're pregnant I swear to God I will be the happiest girl on Earth" She said smiling.
I smiled and nodded taking three tests.
I took them all and then went out.
"What do they say?" She asked
"I don't know, it hasn't showed up yet" I replied.
I put them on my bed and sighed.
"What if I actually am pregnant, and Jonah doesn't want it" I said
"Shut up, you know Jonah, of course he'd want it" She said
I nodded and took the tests back
My eyes widened.
"What?" She asked
"I'm..I'm pregnant" I said
She squealed and jumped up and down
I started crying there
"Why are you crying?" She asked
"I'm just really happy!" I said
She smiled and we squealed together
"You should surprise Jonah!" She said
"I know!" I said
We talked on ideas and decided that I could get him a big box, with stuff a baby needs, and one of the tests too, and with my parents, I would wait until I got an ultrasound and tell them I want to show them a picture, and then have them look at it.
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One month later
Today the boys were coming back, and I had a small bump now, but you could barely notice it.
I was getting ready.
I put on some some shorts and a plain baby pink shirt.
Then I curled my hair and did my make-up.
Mel picked me up, the box was in the boys' house in the backyard.
We drove to the airport and I was hella excited.
We walked inside and waited in the gate for them.
I was really nervous, I was tapping my foot repeatedly and biting my nails.
"Calm down, he'll like it" Mel said putting her hand on my shoulder.
"I'm just nervous" I said
"Shut up and go get your man, I'll go get mine" She said getting up.
"What?" I asked as she ran off.
I looked to my side and the guys were here.
Jonah dropped his bags and we started running towards each other
Then I jumped on his arms and wrapped my legs around his torso, and my arms around his neck.
"Oh my god Jonah" I said crying on his shoulder
"I missed you so much!" He said
"I missed you too, probably longest three months of my life" I said
"You're crying" He said
I laughed
"I just missed you so much" I said
He then put me down and I kissed him
We pulled away and he was crying too
I chuckled and hugged him.
He hugged back.
"Guys I'm sorry to interrupt but most of use are tired and we need some sleep, so if we could go back home, that would be great" Zach said
We looked at him and laughed.
Then we got in Mel's car and drive ve to their house.
When we were there.
All the boys went to sleep for a while and I was on the couch with Mel
"Okay, are you ready?" She asked
"Yes!" I said
"Okay"
"But can we tell them at dinner?" I asked
"If you want to" Mel said
"Okay great" She said
A few hours later all the boys came downstairs and we had ordered some food for dinner.
I was really scared and nervous at the time, we went to the dinner table and started eating.
I think he noticed I was nervous and he put an arm around me.
"You okay?" He asked.
I looked at him
"Babe what's wrong" He asked
"Nothing" I said smiling.
"Are you sure?" He asked
"Actually" I said getting up
"I need to give you something" I said, everyone's eyes on me now
Mel smiled and I smiled back at her.
I went to the backyard and grabbed the box.
I took it to the living room.
Scared, really scared of what hell think.
I sighed
"There" I said
"Babe you didn't have to" Jonah said
"Yes I did" I said smiling.
He opened the box and saw the stuff
"What is this?" He said
The others gasped and Mel squealed.
"Wait" He said, eyes widened and jaw dropped
"You're.." He said
I nodded and smiled.
"Im pregnant!" I exclaimed
