You're not my "best friend." I wanted you to be the person that I could give that title to so bad, but for some unknown reason I can't bring myself to call you my best friend and you've admitted the same. I'm exhausted. I don't know why it feels this way, but it's painful. I love you so much and you're the closest friend I've ever had. I feel like we had one of those friendships that you come across rarely, where you instantly become close, but now it's gone. Was I ever your best friend or were you just saying things you didn't mean? I want our friendship to be 100% genuine. I'm not saying it's fake now, but it definitely doesn't feel real. It feels forced. Maybe it's because you already have your best friend. And I wish I could be that person, but what must be, must be. Just please stop saying things if you don't mean them because it's hurting me.
