I am a forgetful human
I forget big things and little things
I forget where I leave my phone
I forget if I've done my chores
I forget if I've fed my fish
But I also forget things people tell me
Perhaps I wasn't listening
I'm not a great listener
I'll have conversations two or three times
Maybe I never wanted to listen
I do but I don't so I mustn't after all
The information
The emotions
Everything just slips away before I can say no don't
People come in and out of my life
I don't have a open or closed door into my heart
It's a revolving door
People come in and out and in and out
And I feel so alone
The people just keep moving keep going
How can I say stop
How can I scream stop leaving
I can't force them
I can't stop their life because I can't ask that
But I wanted it to stop so I stopped it
This door is closed in some ways
I don't want anyone coming in
I don't want to hold back my screams
Some people still come in but they're the same ones as before
The come in and go
There's no consistency
In and out they go and I smile and greet
Then cry when they're gone
It's not their fault
I shouldn't care so much
It's half my fault
I let them leave
Some I ask to leave
I wished they would come back anyways
I have a person who loves me now
But I still feel alone sometimes
But not because they leave
They don't leave
But I fear they will
Like all others they will leave
They all have
I MISS YOU ALL
ALL WHO LEAVE
