Heavenly | Yoonseok / SOPE FanFiction

Chapter Eighteen - Answer

" Different.. angle ? .. ugh this isn't helping at all.. " 


" You're awake now.. Don't lose hope. " 


" I have to find him. " Despite the redhead's mind flooding with questions and his depression sucking his energy down, he had a slight of hope for clarity. And he was going to hold on to it as tight as he could. He needed answers.. Perhaps a closure. 

Grabbing his belongings along with his motivation, Hoseok left his place to pursue his answer. 

But he wasn't the only one seeking an answer. 

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" Excuse me sir.. Have you seen this man?.." The redhead felt frustrated as the stranger shook his head. The day is coming to an end and Hoseok was looking for the pale man everywhere, searching every block and asking countless of people about his whereabouts, but it was no use, he was nowhere to be seen. All this searching sucked his energy dry; therefore,  decided to take a break before heading back home. 

To his luck, he found a near  cafe. It wasn't special but it was small and cozy, giving out a home-feeling vibes. It was perfect and satisfying for the redhead. The younger walked in, the door bell ringing, indicating the workers of customers arrival. Hoseok wasn't that surprised the fact that it was empty, it was after all getting late. He took a seat and waited for someone to serve him. To his surprise.. Someone very familiar approached him. 

" Oh my.. Hello dear ! We meet again " The old lady spoke with a joyful tone. Hoseok was very surprised to see her again after their encounter at Yoongi's neighborhood. 

The redhead stood up and bowed to her before she gestured for him to sit down, taking a seat across the table herself. 

" I forgot.. What can I serve you ? " 

" Ah any cold beverage would be lovely at this point.. " The old lady smiled and gestured for a young man to come. He quickly jotted the order down of a cup of iced coffee and left. 

" Dear.. I can sense you're troubled.. Have you not found your friend yet?.. 
" Hoseok glanced up at her and nodded, but that wasn't the only thing that bothered him. 

" My last encounter with him went confusing.. I was shouting out my heavy feelings but.. What he responded with can't escape my thoughts. He just responded with.. I'm Okay, and that's it.. He just left. I mentioned it to another friend and he just.. Told me to see things from a different angle. So what the hell is this? A code ? I'm losing my mind.. " Hoseok noticed how she zoned out for a bit. 

" I'm Fine.. Well it's alien talk if you reverse the letters so.. What if you should literally.. Look at it from a different angle. " The redhead rubbed his temple, feeling even more confused. She quickly grabbed his attention however as she got up and went behind the counter, grabbing a pen and a paper before she headed back and placed it on the table, Instantly writing something down and sliding the paper towards the redhead. 

" Does anything stand out to you?.. " She said. 

Hoseok took a closer look. It didn't take much time before the redhead had his jaw dropping and his eyes widening. It was a code after all he thought, but that didn't answer his question. It only flooded his mind with more, but he has to find the answers on his own this time.

" Honestly.. Thank you. " Hoseok sincerely spoke out. The old lady simply nodded and smiled, Hoseok returning the gesture but it soon faded away as he recalled a memory.

" That day.. When I was looking for him .. I know you were probably .. Confused .. I probably freaked you out.. Made you think that I'm just a cra- " The old lady flicked the redhead's forehead. She flipped from joyous to angry and it shocked the younger as he rubbed on his forehead. 

" Wh-what " 

" SHAME ON YOU. Shame on you for assuming this! Shame on you for looking down at yourself! Shame on you for believing that your actions were beyond sane.. I might be old but I'm no fool. I've lived through grief and hardships enough to understand you.. Everyone deals with grief in different ways, ways that could ease up their emotions, their thoughts, Their lives. There's nothing to be ashamed of do you hear me? If that's what it took for you to survive then don't you ever regret it. Don't ever feel like you must apologize for such behavior. You're alive .. You're awake. You're strong when most people didn't follow the same path! .. Son.. Stop and take a look around you. Look at the people who are still around you, who still love you. Yesterday is history.. Stop looking behind you and start making beautiful memories. Fight your pain even if you're at your weakest point. Life is unfair but that doesn't mean we should stand still and let it control us, control our fate.. Remember that NOBODY owns you. Nobody controls your life. It's you. It's only you son. So give yourself a tap on the shoulder.. And remember. 

Don't you ever lose hope. Fight for it all. " 

Hoseok was speechless at this moment. He didn't even realize tears were streaming down his face. It's like fate had lead him to this place.. Just to hear those words. To give him a push towards his goal, to give him hope. 

" One iced coffee fo- oh I'm. did I- " 

" GET BACK TO WORK. " The old lady shouted and snatched the iced coffee from the tray, laughing at the worker who stumbled his way back. 

" Tough old lady aren't you " Hoseok chuckled, wiping away his tears as he stared at his coffee cup.

" I have to, I'm the owner. About your friend.. " Hoseok froze in his place, his head snapped up as his eyes pleaded for more words.

" It happened a few days ago. A young man came at our neighborhood, specifically to your friend's house. I figured he was looking for him as well but.. He unlocked the house and went in. Apparently your friend forgot some of his belonging and asked this man to bring them. " 

" And.. ? " 

" I remembered you and approached him, asking him for your friend's location.. He hesitated at first and asked me why. I used to send your friend brownies whenever I had the time to make them so I used that excuse, but I could still sense his hesitation .. Till he offered me the location of the area he lives in, not the exact house. It was satisfying for me but I wished you'd come my way. This type of information could be worth more than gold for you, but look at that. Fate brought you to me " Hoseok couldn't help but flash his widest smile. It made the old lady giggle at his cute excitement. She gladly shared the location and Hoseok had left with relief settling his heart and mind. 

The redhead arrived at the location and stepped out of his car. It was an extremely eye pleasing neighborhood. There weren't many houses and Hoseok felt lucky for that. From door to door, the redhead kept looking for the pale man. Many thoughts went through his mind as he approached the last house.. 

What if he found someone else?.. 

What if he moved away again.. Maybe that's why he collected his last belongings.. 

What if he doesn't want to see me again.. 

It all came down to this moment. 

His shaky hand reached out for the doorbell button, pressing it as he waited with a racing heartbeat. 

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  Yoongi stood frozen at the door, the surprise protecting him until it shattered like glass. I guess you could call it shock, disbelief, denial even. For he never expected this person to find him.. To show up at his door. Whether it was a dream or reality, it was happening.

" .... Hoseok? " 


The redhead stared deeply into the older's eyes, eyes stinging with tears. Yoongi was like his home.. And he felt homesick. All those emotions that ran through his mind.. Hatred, confusion, broken, emptiness. All the questions he desired answers for.. It all vanished the moment he laid eyes on his lost lover once again. 

Yoongi panicked as he noticed the redhead's tears streaming down his face, his body ached to embrace him but he couldn't.. Till the younger pulled him roughly into a warm embrace, crying into the older's shoulder. 

" Yoongi.. I'm awake. " Those words pierced through Yoongi's heart, clouding his fears and hesitations. The blonde silently shed tears, smiling softly as he embraced the younger just as tight. 

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" Here.. " Yoongi placed a warm cup of tea on the table in front of the redhead and took a seat beside him. The redhead thanked him yet couldn't look him in the eyes. It was time. 

" Truth.. " Hoseok spoke with a soft tone. 

" I can't reveal- " 

" Yoongi please!!! .. I'm losing my mind!! I can't sleep I can't live !! All i think about is you.. Everyday I drown deep in my thoughts wondering what the hell did I ever do wrong.. What mistakes have I unconsciously made.. Why did you leave???! Just tell me!! " 

" ... Because- " 




" Because truth hurts.

Doesn't it, honey.. " The devil spoke again. 

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Ugly cliffhanger again but, It's for the next big chapter. Things will finally become clear soon.