It's simple; a Canadian girl and an American guy. We met on Instagram, dated on Skype and fought the overwhelming odds that were against us just to be together. It's not easy to date long distance or between countries, it's a gamble. You either make...
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It was quick. I will absolutely admit that.
I had just broken up with someone and I was upset. I had never broken up with anyone before and I wasn't expecting the emotional impact it had on me. Even though I was glad I did it, I was still aware that I had just hurt someone in a way that someone else had previously hurt me. A mixture of relief and guilt. I knew I was moving on quickly and I knew that doing so previously had put me in a synthetic situation.
The difference between jumping in quickly with Tyler and then moving on quickly to Jason was this; the idea of dating Tyler never made me feel those typical internal butterflies like I felt wih Jason. There was no excitement, I didn't feel eager or giddy at thought of seeing him and being around him made me feel cautious. I felt timid around him, not comfortable like I should've felt. He was overly confident and a persistent personality. He never took no for an answer which is mainly why I had agreed to date him in the first place. The whole time I told myself that it would just take time to develop real, lasting feelings for him. That I would fall in love with Tyler eventually. That never happened and I found I was lying to myself so that I wouldn't have to be alone again. I never felt like I could relax or be myself with him.
With Jason, my heart felt warm. I felt the tingles in my stomach. The thought of texting him everyday had me feeling beautifully discomposed and the idea of hearing his voice for the first time made my heart thrum wildly in my chest. There was something about this man that had me hooked and I couldn't wait around and friend zone him. I couldn't let someone like this slip past me just because of a horologic relationship standard set by humans. I put a lot of thought into this, even though I had recently gotten out of an obstreperous relationship, Jason was different in the best way.
Dating a guy from Instagram may be odd, unbelievable or outrageous to most people and they may never understand it but their opinions didn't matter to me. In one short month I went from feeling fake and empty to feeling authentic and fulfilled. I couldn't look forward to anything before and suddenly I could actually see a primed canvas in front of me. Vast and waiting.
My only way of communicating with him was a used, white iPod touch with too many scratches on the metal backing and I looked forward to every single notification. At the time there was no such thing as direct messaging on Instagram, so our comment sections sometimes contained full conversations. Our mutual love for Xbox began in the comments below a picture I had posted of myself with a headset on, holding up my blue controller.
Jason: Yes
Britt: You gotta game with me someday :)
Jason: Definitely, I'm going to pick up black ops 2 this weekend :)
Britt: Lol Just to game with me? Shucks! :)
Jason: Well to get back to playing it, but gaming with you is the motive and a definite plus
