Even When I'm Sleeping || Jeon JungKook || BangtanBoys|| [EDITING]

🍃|Love Child

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Nagano, Japan

Sayaka

I had an early sickness again...
Dizziness, strange taste in my mouth,
My stomach tumbling like crazy...cramps... nauseous. I feel like I'm having bipolar episodes due to sudden change of mood...

It's like all I want is for this to stop. All at once.

I never thought that carrying a child in your womb could feel this way.

Everything went so fast.

I don't know if I can go on...

We were so impulsive that we haven't thought of this possibility.

Seokjin was the sweetest person I've known. The moment we found out, he didn't freak out and just hugged me.

Of course, at first we were shocked. Not the way a couple usually reacts upon learning that they will have a baby.

But we're not an 'official' couple to have a baby. Not yet.

I quit my job.
He got me this small yet fancy house in a small town where we can get away from people and of course for him not to be 'found out'.

It is hard for the both of us... that sometimes no matter how much he hides and deny his stress and exhaustion from me, I can sense that he's really struggling to keep everything balance and hidden.

My parents knew nothing of my pregnancy. They thought I needed to work in another place so I won't be able to contact them.

My friends from work? I had to suddenly 'disappear' and pretend that I found a new job that requires my full attention, so, I don't have time to communicate with them.

I had to 'ghost' everyone to keep and take care of a little baby inside my womb.

Unknown to everyone that I'm carrying a popular idol's child that can actually cost him his career.

This little KIM is giving mommy a hard time. I feel like vomiting again.

I gazed over Seokjin's sleeping face... he looks like a child.

Despite this situation we have, I'm glad that I always receive messages and phone calls from (y/n). This girl is like a patch of sunshine...she makes me feel happy and always encourages me to be strong. We always talk about my baby...imagining if she'll look like me or Seokjin... imagining a lot of beautiful things... a future to look forward to. She's the only friend I know... and she's enough to brighten my day.

At least one person knew about how I'm doing and didn't judge me for keeping my baby. She's even excited to help me take care of her or him.

We have a problem though...we needed a doctor that we can trust to keep everything in private. I need to go through monthly check ups and Seokjin won't be here every single time. So I need to be extra careful...

I hope we can find one soon because I don't really find my situation assuring. Older people say that first borns are always risky. Suddenly I missed my mom... I hope my baby's okay.

A buzz on my phone caught my attention;

"Hello Onee-chan, how are you? Have you found a doctor already?..."

I smiled.

"Unfortunately, not yet. I don't really feel well today... TT"

"Did You tell Seokjin oppa??"

"I can't...he's sleeping now and tired. I don't want to bother him as he needs to sleep as much as he can."

"Hm... like Jungkook. Always sleepy."

I chuckled.

"Jungkook can sleep anywhere. Like you."

"Yeah. But... I feel like he gets more sleepy because it's kind of boring for him here..."

I creased my brows in question;

"Did he actually tell you that?..."

"No...but I can sense it. :( "

I bit my lip.

Jungkook is indeed the type who gets easily bored. If there are things that don't fit his interest, you don't need to ask him...it's plain to see.

He'll show it.

"Well, we're about to attend a ball and I'm worried that...it might bore him a lot. But these things make me happy and excited. We've already talked about our differences though but..."

"Relax y/n, just give him time... maybe he's just a little tired. You know exactly what he has been through these days... so..."

I heard her sighed in resignation.

"Thanks Onee-chan, I'll keep you updated.

"Y/N, you guys...are you allowed to spend time together in a single room?"

Y/N awkwardly chuckled;

"Yes... uhm he occupies the room right next to mine. But we mostly go into each other's room. "

I know our situations will never be identical but I still want to remind her.

"Have you done it?"

"Done what Onee-chan?"

I silently chuckled...this girl really...

"Well, you know. The reason why I'm pregnant now??"

"Ohh....that... well-"

Suddenly a voice interrupted her supposed answer;

"Hello Sayaka-chan!..."

Jungkook.

"Oh hey, what's up."

"Is Seokjin hyung with you??"

I paused for a while;

"Y-yeah he is..."

He sniggered.

"You guys take care... send my regards to hyung..."

"Thanks JK. You too and enjoy your vacation there."

"Oh believe me, I am enjoying everything here...the view is breathtaking and...well...if you know what I mean."

"YES. I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN. YOU BE CAREFUL WITH THAT CUTE BEAN OR A SPROUT WILL COME OUT OF HER. "

Jungkook laughed awkwardly and I can imagine his handsome face.

"YES MA'AM."

"Good. I hope to see you guys soon..."

"Ahm...Sayaka-Chan."

"Yes? Anything else?..."

"You be careful and please...take care of that little Bangtan.Okay?"

What the hell did he just say...?

"You don't need to worry about it. Our lips are sealed. Sending our love from here."

"T-thank you Jungkook...that means a lot."

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He knows... oh that chatterbox narcoleptic lady... :)

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