July 21st, 2018
It is 11:10 am and I am feeling really good. It's been awhile since I have. Anxiety is pretty low, depression is not trying to fucking take me down with choke-hold that I can't escape and dysphoria is still there, but not brutally attacking me. Like instead of a full on stab it's more of a punch. So I guess that things are alright for now. I found a blog about a gay fish and it's literally everything I've ever dreamed of, so that's great too. I think I'll either go with lavender hair or blue hair, still haven't decided yet. This school year is going to be a year of change. I'm so excited about back to school shopping, because I can say goodbye to the clothes that cause me dysphoria and I'll have a motherfucking binder. Hell yes.
Update
It is 4:49 pm and my parents have once again ended my good mood with their rude af personalities. I'm so angry yet sad yet self-hating. Ugh, I don't know anymore.
Sadly Ruined,
James :(
