Happiness, finally? (...going on)

Healing

Present day

The sunlight flashed to my face. I didn't realise I was staying up all night, I can feel the puffy eyes I got. I feel very sick and fed up of everything. The slug in my stomach finally arise again, I can hear it laughing hysterically, I'm sad.

I lift myself to wake up and tie my hair into a messy bun, changed my clothes to my daily exercise outfit. I put on my earpiece and ran downstairs. I can hear my brother calling my name, "Ji Eun, are you okay?" I ignored and ran outside.

Without I even realize it, the reality slapped my face and make it more messy with tears rolling down again. I'm sick of crying. I tried to wipe all my tears, all eyes are around. It's just seven in the morning, and I'm out here doing my routine like nothing even happened yesterday.

"Ji Eun-shi?" a voice approached me as I was hugging my knees, calming myself from crying. I looked up to see, Park Jihoon. The boy next door, he liked to call himself. Quickly, I wiped my tears and stood up and replied, "Y-y-yes?"

"Hm, come on. I'll show you a nice place" he took my hand and lead the way to show me somewhere but not the playground. We walked side to side with hands interlocked. I guess, this kind of interlocking hands is the normal thing Jihoon has always did. He's the heartthrob in school, though he never admit that, except if you say he's the cute one, he'll definitely take that as a compliment.

"Here we are," he looked at me with the warmest smile. I finally build a small smile on my face. "What is this place?" I have never even seen this place before. I gazed around, it is beautiful.

The place is decorated with leaves around the wall, flowers carved perfectly, different colors. Complete with lilies, lavenders, blossoms, you name it. It's mesmerizing. I was too lost with the beauty until I didn't realise Jihoon was staring at me. He looked back around as I caught him staring. So cute.

"Try to shout once," I looked at him in complete confusion. "Why would I?"

"Just try it," he shrugged. I let out a small scream. The echo followed. "Louder now, come on!" he shoved me as if he's daring.

"Ji Eun, sweet, it's me Kang Daniel. I had to say this to you, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I let you down, I'm sorry for not being the best soulmate for you, baby, I tried, I tried every day but I don't think I can manage to stay even longer with you. I love you, I'm sorry" It has been straight two years but I still remember every single words he said.

I screamed a very louder scream now. If you're hearing, you won't be able to hear any music no more. I let it out full with my anger. My sadness, it has never been pleasing from screaming before.

"You feel better now?" Jihoon put both his hands on my shoulder and tried to calm me down. "Thank you, Jihoon. This is the best cure." I held his hand and really thanked him. "You always go here?" I asked. "Yes, it has been awhile, but bringing someone here really makes me happy,"

"Let's go," he offered his hand so I took it. This guy is being very sweet. Let's just hope no developing feelings because that'd be a bigger problem.

He took me to the nearest coffee shop. Just to make things make sense, I looked at my watch and it indicates half an hour past eight. Okay, it's normal to have coffee at this time. "Would you mind?" I shook my head and he left me to the cashier.

I looked at him from the back, he's not that tall comparing to Daniel. Daniel has ruffled hair, Jihoon has puffy hair. I can't seem to forget about him as I'm seeing his best friend every day like this.

"Ji Eun-shi?" he approached. "About that, maybe you could consider calling me, Ji Eun, instead? We're at the same age, by any chance" I chuckled by that. "Yeah, sure" he laughed back at my chuckle.

There are things I regret doing and this moment, today, wasn't part of it.

We sat down for our coffee. Surprisingly, Jihoon know what I'm always taking in coffee shop like this.

Suddenly, something caught my eye. A couple with rings on their finger. They looked so happy married couple. Somehow I imagined the couple was Daniel and I. He held my hand softly with his big hands, gazing me with full of attention. His eyes, they were so real. What did go wrong.

Why doesn't everything make sense?