Name: April Octavia Washington
Nicknames: Lost, Raindrop.
Age: 15
Looks: brown hair that goes a bit past her shoulder blades, dull brown eyes and pale skin. She has glasses and light freckles. She is 5'2 and weights 145 lbs
Personality: she is shy around new people and gets nervous very easily. She suffers from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and actions, self harm and eating disorders. She is a very kind and gently girl and cares very deeply about her friends and would do anything so they didn't get hurt. April would rather be hurt then see then in a ounce of pain.
Theme song(s): welcome to my life ~ Simple plan
Don't give up on me~ Veronica Ballestrini
Perfect~ Simple Plan
Better off dead ~ Sleeping with sirens.
Quote(s) (will be a lot and I mean A LOT) :
I'm not good with feelings
Your like snow. Beautiful but cold
I like being alone but I hate feeling lonely
To dead to die
I destroyed myself so you couldn't
Anxiety queen
We're smiling but we're close to tears
My life is a joke and I'm not laughing anymore
I can feel you forgetting me
I'm a mistake
I can't stop the bad thoughts
You don't understand how much I hate my body
There's two sides to every girl
Music makes the pain fade.
What would you do if I tolf you I wanted to die?
I wanted to die but you yelled about the dishes being dirty.
In the end we became the people we swore we'd never be
Fake smiling? I'm a professional at that
I hate those moments when you can't talk because your so close to crying
I'm slowly giving up
I'll never think I'm pretty. Never
And suddenly sad songs are not sad enough
I am the type of person who would sit in the bathroom and cry, but walk out like nothing happened
That moment when you have to take a deep breath before talking cause you feel so close to crying
She's hurt, mentally and emotionally. But everyday she walks with a smile. Cause that's who she is the girl who never stops smiling
I'll be okay. Is that what you wanted me to say?
It's scary what a smile can hide
Stop asking if I'm okay. I'm tired of lying
What's so wrong with me that everyone can leave so easily?
Don't sugar coat me cause I feel like suicide
I didn't mean to ruin everything
Thank goodness my burning hatred for humanity keeps me warm in the cold winter months
I just need someone to hug me and tell me I'm not as worthless as o think I am
I'm no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God
