SIZZY (Save Me From The Darkness I Venture Within My Own Mind)

Loyal

Dear diary,
Today I went on another date with Simon. We went to the park for a picnic. And... I told him that I loved him. He said he loves me too, but I don't know what to believe anymore. It's like he remembers our most special moments, but he doesn't remember the small ones. The ones that truly made me fall for him, and him for myself. I feel as though everywhere I go, there's a shadow following me, and that shadow is MY Simon. Not this lost ghost of a man who I love deeply, and unconditionally. Yet I know I can't let him go. I'm in love with him. No matter how hard I try not to, I can't get him out of my head. He's dug his way into my heart and soul, and I'm scared. I cry myself to sleep most nights, and have nothing to hold onto, except for memories. I dream of him as he once was, and wake up unable to breath knowing what I've lost. I have no token to remember him by, and I die a bit more everyday knowing that to get him back, and I AM WILLING, that I will have to go through what could be the hardest struggle I could ever carry. And today, he remembered how we met. And he asked me to-

"What are you doing?!" Isabelle asked. Magnus stood frozen for a moment.

"That's private!" Isabelle screamed as she went to take the journal from him. She snatched it out of his hands, and could only stare at Magnus's face, feeling betrayed.

"I'm just trying to help. I thought I could find something to help you." Magnus said, now standing.

Isabelle was silent. She only stood there, cradling the journal as if it were the most delicate, and precious object that one could hold.

"How much did you read?" Isabelle asked, although this time, with no tears.

Magnus felt bad for her. He was just trying to help, but he could only imagine how Isabelle was feeling right about now.

"Almost all of the last addition. Pretty much how you're feeling and about how you're frightened by the realization of what you lost, and what you think you could never have again."

Isabelle didn't look as upset anymore. She simply took the journal with her, and went to sit on the leather couch in front of the fire place.

"You do know what that is. Don't you?" Magnus continued calmly.

"It's a Warlocks Journal. It expresses your emotions more vividly. Like my bedroom. I came back one day, and I was unhappy. I wrote in my journal, and my room seemed to change. I guess THIS expresses how I'm feeling."

Isabelle replied, gesturing around the room, and still staring at the flames of the fire.

Magnus went to go take a seat by Isabelle then.

"Yes, and no. A Warlocks Journal is not a toy. Depending on the person, the book could cause catastrophic changes, and can be very beautiful, or very destructive. Say one... Believed that Werewolves were beasts, and that they shouldn't walk the earth. Possibly all werewolves would disappear from the world. That's the dark side of the journal."

"Is there a good side?"

"There always is. Everything, and everyone, has a good and bad side. If carefully thought through, this book could show you the most beautiful things that one could ever see."

"Could you show me?" Isabelle asked. Magnus simply nodded, and put his hand out for the journal. Isabelle handed it over nervously.

Hope U guys like this! I thought that because in the TMI book series that since Isabelle was the one to find & introduce Magnus, that he should be the friend by her side. Just seemed to fit.😏