I wake up back in the house, the smell of food in the air,
'he.. brought me back?' i can't believe it. 'why didn't he just leave me out there? then he wouldn't have to deal with me..' i sigh sitting up
'wonder what they're eating.. smells good..' I think, then there's a soft knock on the door and Carter pokes his head in
"morning. or well i should say good afternoon," he chuckles "you hungry?" he asks holding out a plate of food
I nod and quickly stumble out of bed to go over to him
"oh woah slow down" he says quickly walking over to me,
"get back in bed you need to heal" he chides and leads me back
'heal?.... but..'
i look at the food. he just sighs and sits with me,
"will you eat slow for me?" he asks, "i don't want you choking."
I nod and he hands me the plate.
i watch him as i eat trying to eat as much as i can before he takes it away while also eating slower.
The food is some sort of yummy egg thing, much better that what I would've gotten at home.
He leans closer and I instinctually growl and move away holding the food close.
"I'm not going to take it..." he mumbles but moves away
'why is he staring like that? am i doing something wrong?' i think slowing down more watching him
he looks away
"why did you run away?..." he asks softly.
"...oh.. i.. i'm sorry...'' I stammer out looking down into my food bowl
"its alright.. i just want to know." I nod slowly
"i.. didn't want to be sent back.." i mumble slowly eating a bit more
"sent back? sent back where?" he asks, his eyes widening
"to my pack?..."
"but i.. wherever you came from is not a good place. I'd never make you go back. plus i've been waiting years to meet you i'm not letting you leave my side again." he says growling slightly
i flinch and move back nodding
'he knew? he knows and he's mad i'm leaving?... why?..'
"oh i'm sorry i didn't mean to scare you" he says softly "i just... i don't want you hurt ever again." he huffs.
I nod slowly.
what a weird wolf he is.
"so... you didn't leave because of something I did? right?"
"no... your.. nice...'' I mumble
he nods relaxing
"so.. what do you want to do today? i've asked everyone else to stay away from the main house for a bit so we have the house all to ourselves." he says excitedly
"oh... um i don't know? maybe... um... i'd like more food?..''
I watch him hoping the answer's correct.
he nods smiling "okay then we can cook dinner and i can show you around the house?"
"t-that sounds good"
he smiles and gets up.
he helps me up, and takes me down the stairs pointing out his room and office, as well as where his beta sleeps, where the bathrooms are, and shows me how the intercoms work.
"and over here is where i was thinking your office could go, unless you wanted to share one"
"m-my office?..."
"well, yeah if you're going to help lead my pack, you'll need an office"
"oh... no.. i.. i can't do that..." I quickly say
"sure you can, and i'll be here to help." he says still smiling
"no.. i mean.. you wouldn't want that... i'll just.. no one has to know where mates.. you can get a good partner who can do all that.." i say looking down
"No. you're my mate. I'm not hiding you from my pack. if you don't want to help run the pack that's fine i can do it by myself.. but i will have my mate by my side. no one else." he growls slightly sticking his face into my hair
"s-sorry.." I mumble leaning into him.
my hearts racing so bad im sure he can hear it
"it's fine, just.. please don't say things like that."
"but... i'm not at all what an alpha should have for a mate... im ugly and gross, i have bad memory and i can't do anything right... im a boy.. and im impure..." i mumble my chest heavy.
"that's not true. i think your very cute, and i don't care if you're impure, as long as you don't do anything while were together, i could care less who you've slept with."
"r-really? but... you're an alpha.. you should have someone pretty and good and pure."
"Do you really think I'm that shallow? i'd much rather have my mate over a cute girl any day." he huffs
"do you want someone else?" he asks, kneeling down beside me
"well.... no.. but... I don't think anyone else would want me either... i... i think i... should just... jump off a cliff.." i mumble tears dripping down my nose
"what?...." he stares at me wide eyed, before pulling me close "that's... no. you can't do that. for any reason."
"but.."
"no. Promise me you wont go jumping off cliffs." he says nuzzling his face into my neck
"i.. i promise.." I say standing very still.
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broken wolf. Boyxboy
Wilkołakithis is an orphaned work trigger warning contains gore, violence, sexual themes, rape, abuse, and other explicate imagery Alan was abused all his life and was told he would never have a mate. so when he finds his mate alpha carter he's, of course, a...
