Dear Daiki

special entry.

Daiki, I'm sorry. I failed you as a friend. I let my emotions get in the way of your needs, and I pushed you away because of my own feelings. It was selfish of me, and I'm sorry.

I must confess that I have read through some of your journal. I feel immense guilt for doing something like that, and i deeply apologize. I don't expect you to trust me ever again. But frankly, I'm at a loss, Daiki. I never knew any of that happened to you. Especially the situation with the closet. It worries me deeply.

You have every right to hate me for how I've treated you. I deserve it. I was foolish enough to believe that you and I would have had a future together, but I was wrong.

Takete told me the truth about how you feel, and that's not your fault at all. You can't control whether or not you're attracted to me. And frankly, I'd be a terrible girlfriend. I feel so selfish even just writing this, guilty for involving myself.

I miss you, even if it is just as friends. It's not right for me to go through your journal to try and find answers as to why you passed out and why you've been gone. In fact, I feel guilty writing this note in here by itself. But Daiki, please don't do anything stupid. when I read about your attempt, I nearly lost my mind. I'm so sorry I can't be more for you. I feel like I've apologized a lot, so I'm sorry for doing that.

I'm sorry. I'll return your journal to your dorm room.