An Autumn's Note

2nd Note: "What she believed in.."

As time passes by, my faith in you doesn't change a bit.. I've waited.. waited.. and waited... all I see is your smiling face and your resting place. Still, I can't believe the only reason of my existence, this bestowed duty of mine I failed to do it.

All these years I pray if you'll forgive me for not protecting you, for not being your miracle. Your name is engraved in your grave stone, I tried to erase as how I erased my memories in the time that I lost you, in the time that your last breath disappeared. Even now I can still feel your touches, I can still remember how you laugh and I can still taste your favorite camomile tea.

Amelia, I wished you have waited longer... I wished you have seek me further. Didn't we promised to be together for eternity? Didn't we promised that you'll allow me to be your miracle?.. your savior? This piano of ours where our initials engrave in, reminds me how we love to play piano. Every note surrounds the room, and every key we touch felt like we are one.

"Aren't we just like this piano? Composed of eighty eight keys, eighty eight keys in different notes. Per octave contains piches and combined piches makes music. Just like us, combined characters and feelings makes us one. I love you Ethan more than how Frycek love his music and I believed you are the miracle that God had sent for me.." these words resounds in my ears Amelia. Oh how I longing for your touch and kisses!

I still remember the first time I saw you, you are really strong by then. You have the passion in every step. While walking towards your piano, your dress slides the floor just like a nymph walking down in a garden of eden. When you began playing Beethoven's Piano Sonata No.14 in C-sharp minor " Quasi una fantasia", or also known as Op.27 No.2 Moonlight Sonata, I can still feel and hear your Adagio Sostenuto, the nocturnal scenes in which a mournful ghostly voice sounds from the distance echoed through the hall down to my spine and heart, leaves marks in my soul. And that is the time I realized I fell inlove with you.

I thank God that my father forced me to join in this prestigious school, and by that I met you in our practical exam. I knew it by then, you are the one that will fill the hole in my heart. Reminiscing our past is painful yet leaves a heavenly feels like ecstasy.

And this is the day I've been waiting for years, for a century! When I saw you playing Frycek piece, it brings back the memories how we encourage our little Frycek to complete his piece. Just how you encourage me to love the piano.

I knew that you are no longer the Amelia I knew, I know that you've been rebirth into a new being, and I also know that your soul and character is still the same Amelia a century ago.

" My name is Chloe, Chloe Spienfield. Nice to meet you Ethan?.."

I was thinking to give you my last name, but still I think it will be good and safe not knowing my last name, for I live a hundred and twenty three years old Amelia, my soul and flesh doesn't change because I did a taboo. And I waited for this day, this very day to save you again and be your true miracle in life.

"just Ethan.." I replied.

Amelia is better than Chloe, but I must compress these feelings since you don't understand the situation well and I know someday you will. We spent time just like the old days, just like how we bond in this very room. I wish you could remember that, and of course you won't.  I'm glad I helped you playing the piano piece we composed before with Frycek.

And it ws more painful that you don't remember that we owned this piano, this piano of ours accompanied me for years to wait for you. Those initials inscripted, our initials the proof that we owned this thing and as expected you don't remember anything.

" Do you believe in Tales?", I remember you ask me this and in this very moment I was hoping that there is inside of you can feel me that this is the man you once knew! That this is the man you once loved!... that this is the man that you once believed that I'm your miracle in life, and so do I.

You left the room with a smile in your face. I knew you haven't changed at all. It is just you are still resting inside of your new vessel Amelia, and I will not give up. Not this time, and this maybe my second chance to fix our fates, to fix our love.