Finding My Puzzle Piece

Hatechu?!?!

Bianca's POV

He was so close to me but I couldn't teach out and touch him like I longed to do. I was seriously kicking Katya's ass later for suggesting this bullshit. This is fucking killing me. Fuck Adore noticed I was looking at him. I quickly turn my head looking out the window.

"Why do you have a hangover willow? I know you don't get drunk unless something is wrong."

I feel his touch against the skin of my hand and my body felt electrified. This isn't fucking fair. Fate is a cruel bitch. Besides he has Trixie.

"I'm fine."

My brain was fine.

My heart was not..

It shattered even more lying to Adore but what would he want with an old man like me. Adore deserves to live his life that he has in front of him. 

"You're lying Bianca. I fucking know better. Why won't you tell me what's going on with you? We've not talked since I told you about being with Trixie!"

Trixie's head snaps up from his phone and I heard Katya growl softly under his breath. The uber was stifling with negative energy. I wanted out but I had to get to the venue. I had to do this show. I had to get out of my own fucking head. I opened the window a crack and didn't give Adore an answer or turn around. I didn't want to betray my hard tough bitch right now even though the tears were clearly falling under the sunglasses I wore. 

"What the actual fuck is wrong with you two? You both have been fucking very stand offish and cold. I fucking hate this! Why can't we just talk god dammit!?!?!"

Adore looked over hearing Trixie's outburst seeing his head lowered as his breath was coming out in pants afterwards from what I could hear. Then I heard mumbled whispering between the two and I stopped listening but then I felt my pocket vibrate as I pull out my phone I see a text.

I can't stand this Bianca... 

You're the fucking dumbass that told them to ride with us Brian! What the fuck were you thinking?!?!?!

Katya look over the seat at me. He knew that I only used his name when I was truly pissed off.

I wasn't thinking... and that's the truth.

I sighed out loud and shook my head as I reply back seeing Adore hold Trixie's hand rubbing soothing circles on it. I looked away quickly before paying attention to my phone my anger softening.

I'm sorry Katya. I know this is killing you too. I'm just.... Fuck! I'm fucking too fucking old for him anyways who would want a fucking old man like me anyways. 

Not realizing that I had typed that out and sent it. It was already too late. I feel a hand on my leg knowing that Katya was trying to give me some comfort. I feel a buzz seeing another message.

Your not old Bianker. If he can't realize the person who would truly care for him thru thick and thin than that's his problem not yours.

You whore! I hatechu!

Hatechu? Is that a new pokemon? Bianker can you catch a pokemon and fuck it?

I couldn't help it I cracked up at that. God I love Katya. I see his huge grin and the other two looking at us like we have grown like three heads. 

"Bianker came up with a new pokemon. The hatechu!"

"You fucking slut! I hate you sometimes!"

I am dying laughing. I needed this we both needed this. I see the manic grin across Katya's face and his weird laugh. 

"I hate you too you evil clown cunt!"

I knew then that if Katya was there with me through this bullshit and we could laugh and crack jokes then we could make it through this.

Adore's POV

These two have fucking finally lost it. Like kookoo for cocoa puffs. Like padded room lost it. I look at Trixie who looked almost as lost as I was. I whisper in his ear.

"Have they finally snapped? Do we need to go find the huggy jackets for them?" 

Trixie cocks his head noticing that both Bianca and Katya were quickly texting back and forth. He motions for me to watch them while they don't notice. I see the grin on Bianca's face but I also notice that under his sunglasses there were tired eyes. I was worried about my friend. I knew Trixie was worried about Katya too. We both worried about our two friends I barely heard Trixie speak.

"I think they're hiding behind the comedy so that way we wont worry about them. To make it seem like they're fine and nothings wrong."

I look over to Trixie as I see him quickly typing fast on his phone and then he begins to worry his lip as like he was trying to think of something before I felt a vibration and reached into my pocket to grab my phone brushing up against Bianca's arm. I feel him stiffen up for a second before relaxing and putting on a smile as I looked at my phone.

Hey.. Do you feel like writing music at all? I have an idea and with us both being musicians and singers... Like maybe we should write as song about our feelings but disguise it so they don't realize?

Trix...I'm rock and your folk country. You think that we could do this together? 

I fucking wouldn't have suggested it if I didn't believe in it you asshole!

I seen Trixie get angry I needed to calm him down.

I didn't mean that I don't believe in you Trix... It's just the opposite. I just was wondering how it would work.. I'm sorry.

I see him slump in his seat before smiling softly.

Adore we can make this work if we try. You can't do anything unless you try right??

Truth. Okay. Let's do this!

I see the wheels turning in Trixie's head as we pulled up at our gig. We all got out and grabbed our bags heading in to get ready. I feel Trixie's arm around me as I hear him whisper in my ear.

"We got this..."

I smiled as we walked with a bit more pep in our step feeling a bit more care free.