you hurt me (ereri) [DISCONTINUED]

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**unedited**
    
     Farlan, Isabel, and I were in our lunch break. "I regret coming to college." I said with my cheek resting on my palm. "Same, but we wouldn't have met you if we didnt come." Farlan said. "You got a point." I said. I looked around the lunchroom. A pair of eyes caught my attention. Emerald green eyes. Could it be? I started to panic. I got a good look of his face. It was him. How? Why is he here?. No way. He bought his friends with him?! My breathing was getting heavy. Isabel and Farlan noticed. "Big bro! Are you ok?!" I couldnt say anything. Even if I tried, my mouth wouldn't move. I finally managed to control my breathing. "Levi! You ok?" Farlan asked. "Y-yeah" They knew I was lying. "Levi you better tell us at the dorm." No. I didnt want to tell them. They would judge me. Hell, they wouldn't even want to be my friends anymore. "Sure..."
   
     I dreaded this moment. I refused to tell them. Maybe I could lie to them? No. That wouldnt be right. I guess I dont have a choice. We were at the dorm. They were waiting for me to tell them. "I...umm.."   "Levi, clearly something happened in the lunchroom. Now tell us." Farlan said. I sighed. Here goes nothing. "W-well when I was in Highschool...(whole story)" I couldnt help but cry. What they did next had me shocked. "Were gonna kill him, Levi bro!"  "Yeah that bastard!"  What? They still like me?   "Y-you guys are still m-my friends?"   "Of course Levi. You didnt deserve that. Anyway whats his name?"   "E-Eren Jaeger." I hated saying his name. I hate it. As much as I love it, I hate it. "For real!? We went to junior high together, but we stopped being friends because he was being a jerk.......wait a minute! you were the guy that he posted?!" This is embarrassing. "Yeah...." We sat there in silence. "Well atleast he deleted it."  "He did?" I asked  "Yeah. Maybe he regretted it?" Ha. I doubt it. "Sure.."  "Just ignore them Levi bro. They probably dont remember you or dont know you go here." Yeah hopefully. "Hey Levi We are going to buy some food. Wanna come?"   "No thanks. Im tired." They nodded and left
 
    I actually wasn't tired. I just wanted to have some time alone. I hated being alone, yes, but I suddenly felt like I needed to be alone. I got up and walked to the bathroom and stared at myself at the mirror. I rarely study myself. I noticed I had really bad eye bags. My face showed no emotion. Did I always look like this? I decided to take a shower since they aren't here yet. I stripped myself from my dirty clothes and entered the shower. I loved how the hot water hit my skin. It felt so nice. I felt clean, but I knew I wasn't. I was still dirty. But I love the feeling while it lasts. I got out of the shower and got into my clean clothes. Hmm there still not here? Maybe they're talking to someone and forgot about me. I laid on my bed and closed my eyes. A nap won't hurt right?

RIIING

I woke up to my phone ringing. I checked the time and it was 10 PM. I noticed Isabel and Farlan were still not here... Maybe it was Isabel calling! I immediatly answered without checking the caller ID.

"Is this Levi Ackerman?"

"Uhhh yeah? Who's this"

"Im sorry sir, but your friends Isabel Magnolia and Farlan Church have passed away."

"U-Umm Excuse me? Is this a prank?"

"Sorry sir but sadly its not. They passed away in a car accident at about 9:30 pm. They got wrecked by an intoxicated driver. Dont worry he is arrested. Before the girl passed, she said to tell you to stay strong and that they love you very much. She wished to say more but she couldnt. Sadly the guy passed away before the ambulance reached the hospital. A doctor said He heard him say your name, but it wasn't that audible. Im sorry about this tragic event and Goodnight." He said hanging up.

  Is this a dream? I pinched myself. I am awake. No. It cant be. I threw my phone to the wall. Why does everything happen to me? Why cant I live like a normal person? Why cant I live happy? My ugly sobs filled the room. I wanted to yell, but I couldnt. I wanted to cry more, but I couldnt. I went to the bathroom and found a razor. I have never cut myself, but I always wanted to. I wanted to release my pain. Someone always stopped me, but now no one cant. I was ready to slit my wrists but I couldnt. Why?! I was too scared. Why am I scared!? I threw the razor. I just couldnt. I got out of the bathroom and laid on my bed. I closed my eyes and let sleep get me.

'Stay strong Levi bro!'

Im sorry Isabel but Im weak.

**sorry for the depressing/shortish chapter. anywayss ill update soon as possible. and dont worry erens coming soon in the book. see yaa**