Normal Thoughts

July 23, 2018

Don't you hate when you can't sleep and all of think about Is your ex girlfriend. I've been laying in bed for the last four hours just thinking of everything that went wrong with that relationship. The fights, crying, The lies, everything is wrong with that relationship but I was too stupid and blind to see it. I know I need to get over this it's been over two months and I am talking to somebody new and they're pretty much perfect but better now things seem so far Out of reach. I have felt drained every day for the last three weeks, work is a pain and everyone seems to not like me and I always "Ruin everything" And I don't know how to fix it everything just seems distant, out of reach.. gone... I don't like talking about my life much anymore just feels wrong no one cares about me and you read this they say oh I am here for you but can't really be there for somebody if you're not physically there. And maybe somebody cares but there's nothing they can do about it it's not able to work so I sit here in my bed talking to My phone writing this out for you all to read Some of you will say you care so you were just going over this With no second thoughtJust as I thought you would. I just don't know what to do anymore seems everything is falling around me on me I deal with everybody and no one really seems to get it That I am suffering. And I know it's half my fault for not being here anymore but I have a life and I choose that over the Internet, and I've been the worst decision of my life but anyways yeah that's it bye for now I guess....