Accept Me

Epilogue

Four years later - Rylan is graduating from college today! He and I have been living together since we graduated from high school four years ago.

A couple of years ago was rough for all of us when Sophia had shown up at daddy's house on a weekend that Jaimi-Constanie, her fiance' Joey (new not the old one from high school), myself and Rylan decided to spend a weekend with him and the kids.

Daddy had managed to keep Sophia outside, preventing her from seeing the kids, since she's not supposed to have any contact with them due to the state of her mental health; she was diagonesed a year after they divorced with having multiple-personalities disorder and refused to take her medications and was deemed unfit to have any contact with the young one's.

She flipped out on daddy and stabbed him in the heart as Rylan and I walked outside to see if everything was fine. Daddy died shortly after arriving at the hospital from blood loss and his heart gave out.

Unknown to anyone, in daddy's will he named Rylan and myself as their gurdians in any event of his death or was no longer able to care for my younger sisters and brothers; along with leaving us his home, any anything we needed from the house and his van to be able to safely transport my siblings anywhere we needed to go.

So, within a year from daddy's unfortunate death, Rylan and I adopted Sonja, Sarah, Seth and Sean making us their legal parents for the last year. I won't lie and say it's been a cake walk because I would be lying. Daddy's murder was hard on all of us but more so for my four siblings because their mother is the one who murdered him.

Sophia was charged and tried but instead of serving her twenty years in prison, she was sent to the state's psychatric ward to serve her term due to her illness.

Mama and mom have been a great help as well as Jaimi with helping us with the kids and making sure all of us were becoming better. Rylan and I have all four of them in councling even now, and will for as long as they need it or until they are old enough to legally decide for themselves not to attend these sessions. Rylan and I and Jaimi attend some of our own and family ones.

Other than that tragic accident we're all doing great. Rylan and I are planning on marrying next year in order to save money to pay for our simple wedding and we're not taking a honeymoon, so that is saving us some cash there. We have four children to take care, which is by far more important.

Rylan and I also have in the works an adoption of two siblings, a brother and sister; four year old Rachel and two year old Oliver. When we first walked into the orphange, in the play room where the twelve children were (they were two of the twelve) and our eyes saw them were instantly in love.

Not that the other children weren't adorable, it's just not fesable for us to adopt any more than two and it so happen to be they are siblings. We're two weeks away from the final court date to finalize the adoption and we can bring them home!

So, we'll have a house full - Sonja, whose 16 years has her own room in the loft, Sarah and Seth are both 13 years old and Sean is 9 years old now and Sarah has her own room next to Seth's and those three have the three bedrooms on the floor below the loft. Seth and Oliver will share a room for a few years until Sonja moves out to attend college, which she already has a scholorship for at the university two towns over, she's a smart cookie what can I say. Rachel will have her own room next to Seth and Oliver.

Rylan and I renevated the basement and turned that into our bedroom in half of it and the other half is a play/game room for the kids. So, we have a full and crazy house and my adversion to noise has calmed some but enough to make it more bearable when the kids are fighting or just loud.

Mama and mom are still married and more in love everyday it seems like. Jaimi and Joey found a home to rent together three blocks from us; which makes me very happy, Rylan, too and we're still close to mama and mom and the kids.

Carson-Michael is also 16 years and has a girlfriend for the last two years, Cally, same age as him and is a very kind, shy and awesome girl. Cameron-Matthew is now 14 years old and is on the track and football teams and is unsure of his sexuality, which is fine. Jayson-Alexander and Jaycob-Tyler are now 11 years old and they are still inquisitive, happy-go-lucky boys full of questions still. Last but not least is little Jazmine-Marie, who is already 4 years old and is very excited about her new best friend who is her age, a.k.a. Rachel.

So, even with all the hardships of life and unexpected situations and death, my life, I wouldn't trade for anything different. I wouldn't trade finishing raising my siblings for them to be put in the system and raised by strangers when Rylan and I are able; the only thing I would trade is for daddy to be alive and able to see them grow into the utterly amazing people they are becoming.

I wouldn't trade adopting our two future son and daughter that I will also raise with Rylan. I wouldn't trade marrying him in the future or living with him like I have been for the last four years for anyone or anything different.

I wouldn't trade my childhood or teenage years or my Autism to have what some might consider a *wince since I despise the word I'm going to say* 'normal' life.

I accept me for me and those who love me and matter to me and I them; Accept Me for all that I am and I do the same for them.