No matter what

Baby

Did I really just think about a family... Fucking hell I'm not even 16 yet what is happening.

The next day went as a blur, I couldn't take my mind off the fact I was thinking about a family. I'm so young and I bet Justin wants to wait. I need to talk to him about it I'm just so scared he will run off and hate me.

I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when the door opened. "Baby are you ok?" It was Justin. I nodded "mhm." He looked at me confusingly. "You know I know when you're lying and it's annoying me." I spat the mouthwash out and went and sat on the bed. It was dark but I didn't turn the lights on, I didn't want him to see my face and I didn't want to see his reaction.

"It's... Justin don't think stupid of me. I was making breakfast and I just said to myself 'we can have our own family soon'" I took a deep breath. He looked shocked. "I don't know where it came from it just popped into my head. I'm so young as well." He looked longing at me. "Mel." He took a deep breath. "I was thinking exactly the same thing."

WHAT DID HE SAY?! I hugged him just out of nowhere. "Are you sure Justin?! This is serious and if you want this you need to be serious about being with me and spending your life with me and our baby." He looked lost and confused. "What? You think I'm not serious about us?" Shit.

"No baby no!" He walked off. "Justin don't walk away from me" I burst into tears. I couldn't chase him he needed time to cool. "I'll give you some time I'll just be in the bedroom. Just know I love you no matter how mad you may be." I smiled and cuddled up into the blanket and fell asleep.

"Mel, baby girl, princess wake up" I could hear in my dream. Repeatedly. I woke. "Ughhh what" I mumbled. "I love you come cuddle me baby" I smiled and cuddled into Justin's chest. Wait. There are no tattoos. I looked up to find my ex boyfriend cuddling up to me. "FUCK YOU GET OFF ME HOW DID YOU GET HERE" I screamed and woke up again. "Shit it was just a dream. Holy fuck."

I stumbled out of bed to get a glass of water when I heard Justin on the phone in the bathroom. I don't think he heard me so I put my ear to the door so I could hear better.

"Man it's phenomenal I actually think she's changed me. I really love her. Yes she's almost 16. Man I don't care. I think she's angry with me at the moment I don't know if she's asleep though. Ok speak soon love you butsy."

FUCK JUSTINS COMING. I creeped to the bedroom quickly and lay down and pretended to be asleep. I heard him open the door and lay on the bed next to me. He started stroking my naked arm.

"I'm sorry if I upset you baby. I love you so much you don't realise. I'd love to start a family with you. You're my world. It's hard for me to open up and say how I feel and I feel stupid doing it when you're asleep. I've became a better person since I met you. I'm not fucking around with girls or wanting to drink or smoke weed. It feels so fucking good to have you by my side. I want you forever and I'm so serious about us. Like you can't imagine. I want to show you off but I'm so scared people will send you hate and make you unhappy. I love you Mel. I just don't know how you can love someone like me." I felt tears running down my face.

"I love you Justin." I looked up at him and he was crying. "baby what's wrong" he smiled. "You have changed me and I'm so happy about it. I'm ready to commit to you. Be with you and keep you forever."

I was worried this conversation would come too soon, but now seemed like a good time. "Justin, look at the career you have, you need to be able to be with me and our child 24/7 and going on world tours and always away working on something or the other isn't a way I want to live. I want you to be here for your child, and me. You're so young and so famous you could be doing anything yet you're here talking about making a family with me. I want nothing more justin, but are you really ready and willing to drop that in however many months time. Could be nine, could be 15 but would you be ready to take yourself away from it for our child." Phew. He didn't storm off. He listened.

He took a deep breath and pulled me close to him so we were in each others arms. He kissed me on the forehead and sighed. "I'd drop everything right now and stop just to be with you. I have so much more money than people think. It's not even about the money, I get it. I understand baby. I would stop being famous for you. I can still make music and albums in my spare time but I would put my all into my baby seniourita, mon cherie, my little lady. Mi amour, you're the one I adore and that is all that matters."

"Did you really just quote you're own lyrics. Also Justin, I'm only 16 and I have to think if I'm ready for this, I want it more than anything but I also want to see the world. I know you would take me anywhere I wanted but we can't thoroughly enjoy travelling if we have a baby to worry about. If you can take me around the world and we still love each other and the others ways, then we can talk about it." I look a deep breath, .his response worries me.