the chiefs mate

Chapter 9

I had been in my deep sleep for 2 weeks now. I could feel and hear everyone and everything around me, I just couldn't 'wake up'. Garret and Charlie hadn't left my side. They took it in turns to go hunting. I wanted to tell them to leave but I couldn't.

I could hear Carlisle coming into the room and asking Garret and Charlie to leave and go hunting together. I felt Carlisle come up to the side of my bed.

"Why didn't you tell me about this? We could have helped in some way. I'm not even sure if you're in pain right now and you can't tell me. None of us know when you are going to wake up, and you're letter is very vague."

I knew Carlisle was only looking out for me but I couldn't tell him properly. I had to tell him face to face. Not through a letter when I was unconscious. 

When I was a newborn I was approached by another vampire who found me when I was feeding. I asked him if I could have his power. He gladly let me but didn't tell me the repercussions. He had a dangerous power but also a sought out one amongst many vampires. He could turn himself into a human. If he really wanted to he could turn himself into a human permanently and grow old with the one he loves. I couldn't handle this amount of power as a newborn. I was only just figuring out how to control all of my powers. 

Instead of getting all of the power I could only manage a small amount of it. This means that every few hundred years I fall into a deep sleep. I also turn into  human in this deep sleep. I breathe, cry and have a heartbeat. I still don't age but I take on human things like a blush in my cheeks, a human eye colour and growing hair. I can also fall pregnant in this time. Once I wake up I have the power to stay human for some more time or go straight back to being a vampire. 

I don't tell people about this power I have because i'm not completely sure on how to control it. I can't ask the original vampire as he is dead now and I have no way of researching it as I am the only living vampire that I know of with the power. 

I keep it to myself as I don't want people coming after me or asking me to turn them into a human. I wasn't completely sure on how to do that and I didn't want it going wrong. I didn't want to tell any of the Cullens in fear that they would ask me to change them back into humans. I had an idea though. I could try it and I owed it to one of the Cullens. I was going to try and change Rosalie and Emmett, just for a year. So that they could have a child.