7/25/18
A somber day it is. More a day of remembrance to the ones that have left me, and here I stand before their tomb to preserve the memory of family get togethers on special days such as these. My heart forever has a void that will never be filled
I am forever thankful that I got to have so much time with them. As I sit here I can hear them say "Enjoy your birthday, stop wasting your time with us old folks, you're still young, enjoy your life." And as before, within my mind, even though they are gone: I'm not spending time here because I have to, but because I want to, because I always enjoyed the time spent with them, no matter what.
Today is a somber day, because I didn't think I would live this long, or I would still be here. When I was younger learning that everyone dies, that was really hard for me. Learning that even my amazing grandparents would leave this plane of existence was mentally crippling. I thought that just losing my Grandpa, one of my rocks, would break me.
Today is a somber day, because I am 30 years old and I have no plans, no goals... just shock, anxiety and bits of despair upon obtaining this age. I feel like an integral part of me is missing...and it's overwhelming.
Today is a somber day, because it doesn't matter how many times I come to this cemetery... Whether it's sunny, windy, snowing or currently just hot as heck.... there is always rain within my skies.
