Two months later and I must say I was fighting myself daily trying not to fall too deep for him... it was making me crazy a part of me wanted him to be completely mine but the other side I just couldn't trust him yet I just couldn't let him in. I was at Tonya's House on the couch staring off in space...
" Toni!" Tonya called out my name breaking my thoughts.
" Huh?" I replied
" Girl what's up with you?" Tonya asked
" Tyrone got that ass sprung that's what's wrong with her." Jonay Said Laughing.
I didn't say anything because I really was feeling him.. I wouldn't say sprung but I never had a real relationship before I felt I could have that with him but at the same time I just couldn't trust him with my heart...
" Toni!" Tonya called out again, so everything just flowed right on out...
" Y'all I'm really feeling him! But man, y'all know how I am.. I Aint about to trust him with my heart.. plus my baby... how could I trust him around my baby?"
" Girl Stop letting your past stop you from loving somebody and allowing somebody to Love you. Plus he seems like an alright guy .. I'm sure he'll treat Nya like the little princess she is. If a man loves you he'll love EVERYTHING that comes with you, your child, flaws, family, all that." Tonya said..
I knew Tonya was right but I just knew I couldn't let him in. My phone started buzzing
" Hello?" I answered
" Hey, I wanted to know if it would be alright if I could see my granddaughter today?" It was De'Andre mom of course
" Uhh, I guess that's okay.. let's meet at ihop."
" Girl Who was that?" Jonay Asked.
" De'Andre Momma Girl... she trynna Get Close To Nya now all of a sudden I don't know if I'm really feeling that." I replied
" Maybe it's nothing Girl, but shit who knows cause Ms. Karla is kind of crazy as hell." Jonay said
Later that day I went ahead and met up with Ms. Karla... she seemed excited to see Nya however Nya wasn't too happy to see her. I know it's only because she's not used to Ms.Karla but that's her fault not mines.
" Her grandmas baby. Come sit by granny." Nya just looked at her like she was crazy. I was laughing so hard in my head.
" Maybe me and Nya should start spending more one on one quality time." Ms. Karla said taking a bite out of her pancakes.
" No offense, but my baby isn't going anywhere with you by herself." I replied I could tell she felt some kind of way about my response but she got ton understand just two months ago my baby didn't even know she existed.
" Well if that's how you feel I guess I'll just leave." She Said Getting Up and collecting her things... so I got up and collect my things and baby and we dipped. My phone began to ring as I was on my way back to the house
" Hello?" I answered.
" Hey Baby, What You Doing?" Tyrone replied.
" Aha, Nothing In on my way home."
" Oh okay we'll hit me up when You In Safe."
We said our goodbyes and hung up.
I kind of felt bad because by this time We was two months in and he was claiming me as his girl and I wasn't claiming him as my man, I'd just say oh we're just friends . I Mean I was fighting my feelings daily about this Niggah I did not want to get hurt so I distanced Myself From Him And Made Sure My Baby never laid an eye on him or heard his name NOBODY was going to just walk in and out my child's life like she's nothing not a soul. Once I pulled up to my apartment I seen a black car parked in my spot that I never seen here before. As soon as I got out the car and grabbed Nya a white man Came Out The Black Car.
" Ms.Johnson? I'm Walter with DSS we got a unknown call saying that you were a unfit parent. I must inspect your house." He Said Waiting on me to let him in. I grabbed my keys and opened the door I walked in trying to turn on the lights. Man I know I Paid this light bill. I said silently to myself.
" Uhh, Ma'am How Long Have your lights been out?"
" Sir I swear I just paid my light bill."
" Well all your neighbors lights are one." He Said Looking Out my window. He walked all through my house he walked to the kitchen sink and tried turning on the faucet but not even one drop of water Came Out. My heart felt it was about to explode because I KNEW I laid all my bills not even a full two weeks ago.
" Ma'am..."
" Sir I Promise I Just Paid My Bills Not Even a Full two weeks ago. I can call electric company to prove that." I Said Cutting Him Off With Tears already starting to run down my face ...
