I was asleep and I felt someones warm arms around me, I looked over to see it was Jungkook and smiled. I noticed he was sweating a lot and breathing hard, he was also mumbling so I knew it had to be a nightmare. I Shook him lightly but he didn't budge so I Shook him harder and he shot up looking panicked and was ready to start crying to any given moment. "T-tae? " he asked his voice sounding broken, as one tear sliped down his face. "Shh~ I'm here, your okay it was only a nightmare. " I said and he pulled me into a tight hug refusing to let me go. I played with his hair as he countinued to hug me with his eyes closed. I knew he was still awake but I didn't want to force him to talk. "Tae... " He mumbled breathing in deeply. "Yes, kookie?" I said letting the nickname slip. "Kookie? That's new, I like it." He said smiling. I smiled back and rested my head against his chest. I smirked as an evil idea popped into my head, I'd probably die for this but it'd be worth it. I started tickling him and he jumped rolling out of bed and hitting the floor with a thud. He stood up with an evil grin and I gulped loudly, "oh now you fucked up. " he said walking towards me. I shot up sprinting out of the room hearing him close behind me. All the guys looked at me confused and I quickly jumped behind Hobi and Suga. "Save me! " I squealed as Jungkook walked towards us. "What did he do? " Hobi asked laughing. "Tickled me. " He said and the two moved quickly leaving me to deal with Jungkook. He grabbed me and threw we on the couch while tickling me. "I-im sorry! " I scream trying to move from under him. "You messed up kid." Suga laughed. "STOP! Please! " I yell laughing so hard my eyes watered. "Nope, this is what you get for being a brat. " He laughed. "Please!! Stop! I can't breathe!! " I say sweating and panting but he kept going. "Please I'll do anything! " I yelled counting to laugh while Hobi and Suga recorded me. "Anything? " He asked raising an eye brow. "Yes! Anything! " I ask as my sides started to hurt. "Hmm~" he says still sitting on me making sure I wouldn't go anywhere. "A kiss? " he said smirking and I felt my face go red. At this point everyone else had already shown up and was watching. "A w-what? " I asked hoping I heard wrong. "I want a kiss." He said smirking again. "W-where? " I asked feeling my face on fire. "The lips." He said. "O-o-okay." I said not sure why I was wanting to kiss him. He smirked and leaned down very close to my lips but paused for a second then stood up. "No, not like this." He said sighing. "W-why?" I asked confused. "Because I want to make sure our first one means something. " He said walking to his room. All the guys looked at me shocked and all I could do was sit there suprised. "I-i-i.... What happened?" I said confused. "He fell for you, he actually fell. " Suga said smiling widely. "He fell? As in fell for me? As in likes me?" I question hearing my heart beat rapidly. "Yup, and by the looks of it you do to. " Jimin said and Rm agreed. "Don't hurt him. " was all jin said before leaving. "I-i.... J-just. I don't know. " I spit out. I stood up and walked back to my room frustrated, I knew that if I did fall for him things could get worse.... I just needed time to think. There was a loud knock on my door before Jin came in and said, "we need to practice your shooting, come down in an hour and we will do so. " he left after that. I sighed flopping back down on the bed grabbing the note book that help my poem and started writing again.
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I sighed feeling my stomach growl, I stand up and walk back down to the kitchen. I grabbed a bowl and got some fruit loops. I shoved a spoonful of cereal into my mouth and started walking back to my room when Rm called me to watch tv with him. "How's your neck and arm? " He asked. "They don't hurt, just a nasty scab. " I said shrugging. "Look, I know everything is new to you but if you have to speak to anyone I'd be glad to help you." He said smiling at me. "Thank you, I'm fine. I really am, don't worry. " I said as pictures of the guy I shot running through my mind. "Have you killed anyone before? " I asked. "Of course I have. All of us have, it's a must with this life." He said sighing. "How was it the first time you killed someone? " I asked. "Difficult, very difficult. I had bearly proven myself to Jungkook when he asked me to go with him on a drive by. That was the last test, the guy who I was sent out to kill had killed one of Junhkooks friends. I remember the feeling of pulling that trigger, it felt.... Good in a way. At first it did at least, but it just became harder. The guilt was eating me alive, but it got worse with time. I kept killing people who I needed to. Knowing that these people also had families, or knowing that some of them never had a choice had gotten to me. It's a game of survival and I had to make sure I wasn't the one that ened up dead in the end. Jin was the reason I had gotten involved, we grew up together and when I was struggling he had been there. The guilt got so bad that one day I couldn't take it no more. I locked it all away, I told myself that these were bad people for the things they do. I told myself that we are bad people to, but that this was my family and I couldn't let them down. Tae you have to stay strong while doing this, it gets hard. You just have to find something that keeps you going, if that's Jungkook or the simple fact that this is your life now then accept it. It's gonna be the only thing you hold on to, believe me we all know your not really okay. But we will always be here, and we will always have your back as long as you don't turn away from us. " He said looking me in the eyes for the last part. "Did he really deserve to die? " I said lowly allowing myself to feel the feeling I tried so hard to forget about. "Tae, when you kill someone you have to always belive you are doing the right thing. Don't let yourself feel guilty, you did the only thing you could have done. " He said. I nodded slowly, inhaling deeply. "Okay, thank you Hyung. " I said smiling, he laughed and nodded. "I have to go practice with Jin now, I'll see you later. " I said getting up and putting my empty bowl in the sink. I walked downstairs and saw jin already down there. "Hey. " I said looking at the targets. "Hey, I was just about to get you, choose a gun. " He said and there were 8 guns in front of me. I saw the one I had the night of the club, I ran my fingers down the side before lifting it and pointing it to the ground. "Alright, do you think you can shoot the red target? " He asked. I aimed at the target pulling the trigger having a flash back but shrugging it off. I hit the target on point when he clicked a botton and the target started moving side to side at a running pace. I aimed and shot again hitting the target, he countinued to make the targets move at diffrent pace and directions but I hit almost every one, missing about 3 or four. "I don't think you have a problem with hand guns. " He laughed. I chuckled suprised at myself before putting the gun back on the table. "You can keep it. " He said. "What? " I asked confused. "The gun, keep it. It was the first gun you used, everyone has thier own 'special ' gun even Jungkook." He said packing the rest up. I nodded looking down at the gun. "Tomorrow I'll take you shooting with shot guns and snipers, also Hobi wants to show you other things to. Just that right now he's kinda busy so he'll probably do it tomorrow. " Jin explained. "Okay. " I said as we left the basement. I walked to Jungkook room and knocked softly before the door was opened. "Hey, can we talk? " I asked and he nodded pulling me into the room. "Can we do it later? I just wanna lay here for now. " He said pulling me into the bed with him. He was shorts and a white muscle shirt on. I sighed and inhaled his sent as he hugged me tightly. He yawned and j realized he was tired but refused to sleep because of his nightmare this morning. "Kookie? " I asked and he looked down at me. "Yeah? " He asked. "Go to sleep, I see how tired you are. I'll be here when you wake up. " I said wanting him to be healthy. "O-okay. " he said in a small voice before closing his eyes and resting his head on my chin, starting to dream once again.
