"The mistake is thinking that there can be an antidote to the uncertainty.
-David Levithan, The Lover's Dictionary
I don't think there has ever been a time when I've resolved something on my own. I get anxious, not quite sure what to do.
I don't want to make any more mistakes. I want to be perfect in some prospect.
I've always just been average, not able to live up to others expectations.
I thought it was because I didn't care. I wasn't living for other people, but for me. If any turmoil arose in my life, it would eventually sputter out.
No one mattered because no one cared. There was nothing to worry about.
This life was pointless so why worry about baseless uncertainty. It would resolve itself. Work itself out.
Life would naturally chose the right way for me to walk. That's how it would work out.
I had an invisible guide that led me through all of the hurdles of life. Whatever problems weren't solved would dissipate.
But one day life stopped beneath my feet. My guide faded away. I fell into a void.
All of my ignored uncertainty caught up with me at a crossroad.
I don't know which way to go because I don't want to take the wrong path.
So I stood still, not wanting to go any further.
Because I didn't have a guide anymore. I didn't have a reason to move forward.
I had no reason to keep living.
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