Sanity - Sequel to Captured Heart // Bellamy Blake //SEASONS 2 &3//

nine

I ran to Finn's body, a corpse that meant nothing to the world anymore. Just a lifeless sack of bone and flesh.

My hands started touching his wound, blood drenching my hands as they touched his body. Tears escaped my eyes as I wailed in anger.

"Yu gonplei ste odon." I said, getting up and walking to the tent beside Clarke's.

I could hear Clarke crying inside, as was I. I looked at my hands to see the blood on them. I didn't kill Finn, but I had been the one to accompany his death.

I had resented him for so long after what he did to the village. After he killed those men, women, and children but now all I want is my best friend back.

Bellamy and Octavia walked in, seeing my harshly scrub away my blood soaked hands. Octavia ran to me, on her knees as her eyes fell from pity.

"They would've killed him. I — I couldn't save him — " she grabbed my head and pulled me into a hug, my tears soaking her jacket.

"It's okay, it's not your fault."

"I couldn't save him." She rocked me back and forth, words barely escaping my mouth.

"What did I do? I killed him!" Octavia held my head tight, holding me as my eyes went puffy.

Gustus walked in, seeing Octavia holding me, my heart being broken in two. He stood tall, as I wiped the cascading tears from my face.

"The Commander is ready to talk."

Lexa, Indra, and Alaina both walked into the tent, not saying a word as I stood up, trying to erasing every bit sorrow from my face.

Clarke walked in with Abby and Kane by her side, I assumed was ordered by the Commander.

Lexa sat down in her throne, Indra, Gustus, and Alaina beside her.

"Blood has answered blood. Some on my side that the execution was not enough. They wanted the murder to suffer as our tradition demands." I looked down, as if what I had been through was enough as it is.

"But they do not know that your suffering will be worse. What you did will haunt you til the end of your life." She looked at Clarke, now looking at me.

"And you knowing you couldn't do anything to save your friend. Still, there will be restitution. The body will be given to the people of Tondc."

"Murderer and murdered joined by fire. Only then can we have peace." Lexa said, demanding more of the Sky People.

I honestly didn't care. I wanted to have peace with the grounders, if this treaty did not work. . . Finn died for nothing and I won't let that happen.

"No. No, we done enough. The boy should be buried by his own people." Kane spoke, only causing more of a dilemma.

"Enough? We were owed the pain of 18 deaths. We were owed our righteous kill. My village deserves justice!" Indra yelled, once again, creating more conflict.

"You don't want justice. You want vengeance." I said, looking at her with tired eyes and a tired face.

"But we'll do it. But when it's over, we talk about how to get our people out of Mount Weather." I said, Indra looking shocked at my response.

"All of our people."Clarke said as Lexa nodded at both of us,

"We all want the same things, Clarke." She said,

"Good. When do we leave?"

"Now. Choose your attendants."

I nodded at her demand, trying not to create more conflicts, especially the one Clarke and I were dealing with internally. Finn's death.

Bellamy walked up to me as I started to head out. He grabbed my hand, seeing me broken from what I had done. What I had done to Finn.

"Liv, you don't have to do this."

"Yes, I do. If this truce doesn't hold. . . Finn died for nothing." I got out of his grip and walked to Arkadia, grabbing my things and following the grounders.

••••••

I started walking, more in fact, running to somewhere where I could be alone and drown in my own pool of tears.

I ran until I couldn't breathe, falling to my knees, screaming for something — anything — to distract me from my pain.

It was swallowing me whole, my heart engulfed by tragedy, suffering the loss of a loved one. It subdued me, entangling me in depression and anger. All I wanted was to make someone else feel what I feel.

Someone to suffer the way that I suffer.

I saw two leather boots stop in front of me, the dirt covering the tip of the boot. They kneeled down, hovering in front of me.

It was Bellamy, the person I was trying so hard to keep away from me. Who I was trying to protect from myself, the person I wanted to be by my side at this very moment.

"He's gone. He's gone and it's my fault!" I screamed into his arms as he held me at his chest,

"I-I- you don't understand! I didn't even get to tell him everything I wanted to say." He nodded his head and cradled me,

He pulled my head in front of him, cupping my face with his strong and muscular hands. He used his thumb to wipe away my tears cascading down my cheeks.

"You listen to me — this is not your fault. The woman I love is so much stronger than this; stronger than the pain and guilt that is surrounding her." His eyes swelled, staring into mine.

"Bellamy, you-you can't talk to me like that. Not anymore." I placed my hands on his, holding them closely.

"Not until you're safe."

"God! We are never going to be safe, Liv! Look around us — grounders at war with us, commanders killing our friends! I will never be safe, neither will you." He helped me stand up, his eyes pleading.

"We need to live in the moment, because this is all we may have right now. Life is about more than just survival." He grabbed my waist and crashed his lips against mine, making my body relax at every second.

He let go, leaving me shocked and confused. He smiled, tracing my bare arms with his hands.

"I know you are dealing with a lot right now — but when you're ready for me, I'll be ready for you."

He grabbed my forehead and pulled it down, placing a gentle kiss on it. His shape got smaller and smaller as he walked away, leaving me there dazed and confused.

Sorry I have been gone for so long! I have had a lot to do, but I thought I would come back and hit y'all with a good chapter.

Thank you so much for being patient. I will forever love you.

xoxo, @different03