Reversed

Med Bay

Sorry for any mis-spelled words. These chapter are not to really make since with the 100. This is just a version that I love writing. Please don't hate for it not being the "real version to the 100" I'm aware that season 4 and this book don't match up. Please no hate!!

Clarke's Perspective
It's been a week with me being in med bay since I woke up. Raven did check up daily. Raven made it to where someone was by me the whole entire time. Most of the time, Bellamy was here. Raven wanted me to eat, but I couldn't. I had fallen asleep thinking about all of this.

"Bellamy." As I said hoping we can talk about what we wanted to two weeks ago.

"Yeah?" Bellamy asked thinking if I could bring up the subject.

"Can I tell you something?" I asked scared to even say the words I am thinking of.

"Sure, Princess." Bellamy said as he knew he has never really called me princess and wanting to bring the princess nickname back.

"I love you. I just never gotten the chance to say that. I felt like I could never tell you that though. I felt like I wasn't good enough for you." I said hoping he would say I love you too back.

"I love you too. Clarke when we started talking about the conversation two weeks ago when we first got here I wanted to tell you I love and I never want to lose you. Also your better for me then I am for you." Bellamy said as he kissed my lips softly.

I was really tired and I knew Bellamy was tired too.

"Bellamy, do you want to stay and comfort me?" I asked hoping he'd say yes.

"Sure. I thought that's what I'm doing anyways." He laughed and sat there about to fall asleep.

I moved over and made some room for Bellamy. After I did that I patted the empty space on my bed for Bellamy. He came on the bed and cuddled me.

"Hey Princess. Are we together?" Bellamy said almost drifting to sleep.

I kissed his lips softly. "Does that answer your question?" I said and nodded. "We are." I told him as we both drifted to sleep.

Bellamy woke up and started to get out of the bed. Which that woke me up.

"Are you okay Bellamy?" I asked as he looked at me with love in his eyes.

"Yeah I'm okay. I'm just going to get ready for the day. Ill be back." Bellamy said leaving.

A minute after he left Raven walked in and said check up. She told me to get on the scale. We both noticed I've been losing weight and that's not good.

"Clarke you need to eat." Raven said worried about me.

"I will when...." I paused and sighed

"When????" Raven said hoping to be soon.

"When I can actually walk around and talk care of myself." I said knowing that I'm capable of talking care of myself.

"But Clarke. Fine you can. But you have to do what I've been doing everyday." Raven said hoping I would change my mind.

"Raven it's my own body I think I know how to handle it by now." I said leaving med bay to where my room is.

As I got there I noticed Bellamy standing there looking at photos of me, my dad and my mom.

"Are you okay?" I asked as Bellamy jumped when he heard me.

"Yeah, I'm just looking at photos of you." Bellamy said smiling wide. "Also shouldn't you be in med bay?" He asked hoping for me to go back there.

"Raven let me go and is letting me take care of myself." I said walking up to him and hugging him. "I have to get ready for the day." I said as Bellamy looked at me walk to my room for clothes.

I got ready for the day. Bellamy walked with me to see everyone. I haven't seen them in a while. They all hugged me when they saw me. They hugged me for a while and Bellamy did too. I looked to see all of their faces when the hugs were over. They all said they have done something that would make me cry. There gifs were amazing.

"Clarke, Can we talk?" Harper asked knowing something was weird on how I got out. She knew I was supposed to be in there for another week.

"Sure." I said as Harper pulled me into a room where no one was. "What's up?" I asked.

"Why are you out early?" Harper asked checking my eyes response.

"Raven and I agreed that if I get out and start taking care of myself like I can, I promised her that I would start eating." I said trying to be as quiet as I could.

"WHAT??!!" Harper yelled.

Everyone heard her and came. They just started looking at us.

"Everything okay?" Bellamy asked looking at the both of us.

"Yeah we're good." I told Bellamy hoping he would understand.

"No we are not!!" Harper said mad at me.

"Why what's going on?" Murphy asked.

"Clarke is-" I cut Harper off.

"Harper stop!" I told her as I interrupted her sentence. But she still continued.

"Clarke is not doing what's good for her!" Harper said getting that off her chest.

"What is she talking about Clarke?" Bellamy asked looking at me. I can tell they all were wondering too.

"I haven't been eating when I was in med bay. I couldnt. I saw how bad I had gotten and how worse this is gonna hurt me in the end." I said staying clam as only the two people who knew about my condition looked at me like I was hurting myself.

"Clarke, what do you mean?" Bellamy asked with feeling worse.

"I'm having an issue. It's not that small either. I'm getting worse and I couldn't tell anyone either. I don't think I can. But all I am telling you is something bad happened to me in Mount Weather. When I was there with the others. Something happened and it's not fixable. I noticed it when I was risking my life to come back. I was passed out. I didn't know why." I couldnt handle telling everyone that, so after I did I ran to my room and couldn't help thinking of why. Why am I hurting the people I care about?

Bellamy walked in. "Is everything okay?" Bellamy asked coming and putting his arm around my waist as I sat on the couch.

"I cant. Bellamy, I can't tell anybody that full story. It brings back to much." I said as tears were falling down my face. Bellamy held me tighter and the other came in to see if I was okay too.

"Clarke, no matter what you do were here to help you though this issue for the rest of your life." Murphy said not sounding like himself anymore.

Raven came and sat by me and squeezed me. "I'm sorry Clarke." I felt like everyone still wanted the full story.

That's it for this chapter. Hope you guys enjoyed. The next chapter will be up soon.